i'm playing again this colour fri. today someone asked me a peculiar qn: so ur ranking in the band is higher than xxxxxx? since ur 1st and she's 2nd?
hell what kind of qn is that? let me quickly make my mind clear to all- i never once think that i'm better than another, musically speaking. though i try to play differently. i think it's evident already- i have my own versions for nothing but the blood, and history maker, among other individual bits of arrangement i 'd like to put into other songs. cos i believe that the listener's shd get some variation from different performers. what's the point in everyone doing the same thing? it'd be a dull world if everyone painted red the same shade. i dont assert to be better than another musically. nowadays i realise it's not really how good you are. and anyway i've really fallen so much in terms of skill that only i know. but well, i hope to pick it back up in a few years time, when i do leave the army. it's actually how u use what u know how to that makes a difference. knowing but not using is a huge waste of resource. and no. i dont decide to be 1st kb. and i'm sure there's no such thing as ranking in the band. why cant everyone just be good friends with each other? why have such political undertones in that question? to trap me? cos see, i've grown very tired of strife. my parents married to hurt each other, it seems. i cant take it anymore. i'm really waiting for the day the happy ending is mine. where the crashing down of hollow years is all i can hear. where i can leave the burden and the aches buried forever. where i can be true to the ppl i care abt, true to everyone i know, without them seeing if there's something un-christian abt it they can exploit. when i can stop being a hypochrite. cos so many ppl are without realising it. yet their self-righteousness is still so forthcoming cant place it. but it starts with me. my walk with God starts with me.