i will miss my workplace..
been working here since late last december..
1st time blogging with fotos--

a badge(not the project i work in)

the safety helmet i wore only once

my goggles

me in my office

my own cubicle

my ferreros(sm1 givez)

my IP phone(uses Lan(4) cable-lol)
i have my own extension!

my old but reliable pc..with it i race through my work jus like fujiwara races in his dad's toyota ae86 on akina's downhill

ytd went to eat thai food with colleagues..their treat for me ck and xm's (g)farewell..lol
more than 12 dishes rushed into 1/2 hour of lunchtime..superful..
haha
and nice.
pity no pics to post.
the lunch table was really cramped...

prob gonna play pool later tonight...
i dun like to sleep..
the night is an attractive place to be in.

haiz
i din noe i could feel confused like this.

jus a cartoon i saw..LOL

you know something?
if u listen to Sakura drops by hikaru
on a dark windy morning
when the sky is a mixture of pale and grey..
with the dry yellow and brown leaves being blown off trees..
with a pale blue roofed building looming in the distance..
and to ur far right side u gaze deep into a dusty plot of land
where all manner of debris lies
from the stones to the large chunks of steel and concrete..stare harder
it begins to soften..and what u'll have before you will be a shifting mess
and together with the gale u feel and as u see the leaves sweep about ur feet, realising that they're dancing in and out of ur undone shoelaces..
you'll feel as if autumn is coming in singapore.
yes autumn...
go try it..
i wish autumn could come to my workplace...
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ok aniwae
friday was 05s21 class guys dinner...
postponed from wed..cos of some miscomm between ppl..
at crystal jade xlb tat one..at taka there...shihan looksa little like scofield..
even tho alvin says thats too kind a description.
then talk of seeing trannies..but in the end went for stomp the yard..and ran with vic and sh to catch the last train home..1215..
nva took that last train b4..
thats the only prob i haf with goin out late..
i dun wana spend more money cabbing home..
or taking the NR cos u haf to walk to e areas they pass by...
otherwise i think i'll be stayin out long..cos really..nite is more beautiful than day...
u can lose ur thoughts in the night also.
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sunday..
reunion with some sec sch frens..
played bball with ryan willie al chin and co again..since like last june
and i really cant dribble any more..cos din play with them since ryan moved to kovan...
wow..
but my shooting still acceptable considering the long inactivity period..
still chops but shots on target drops...
sigh ns coming.
feeling mixed emotions about it...

~memorandum~
on the 21 of march 2007
joel submitted aidetiankong.wma to keith of tinyboxmusic studios
keith's 1st words to him were:"joel! great stuff!..BUT....."
and keith proceeded to tell him wad was lacking in terms of quality etc..
and of course..the classic ole scenario:" recommend u to JOIN OUR CLASSES..individual-$300."
joel said: "no money ar...i am so different from every kid in this world..no allowance de..so cant ar.."
keith said:" no p..i understand..take ur time then..if u haf other songs..i am open to them.."
joel said:" have ar..but i think i wan rerecord to a more presentable standard then let u hear.."
keith said:" take ur time"...
etcetcetc
so this entry serves as some sorta copyright indication that this is my song..
or and of course to those teachers i let hear..like our chinese teacher and my musicians club teacher..and a few frens.
mr lim thinks that i did the wrong thing..cos he might "borrow" and "modify" bits and parts of it and turn it into a hit to call his own.
well, i cant cry over spilt milk if that happens, but i dun wanna believe that ppl are cheats. everyone is my friend until they prove otherwise.
anyway im over that song.
how to copyright a song???
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im balanced brained.(conflicts from my emergenetics profile)
auditory learner...
that i knew..since i learn music that way.

its like a drug
i noe drugs arent good..
but u cant tell a smoker to quit.
he nva quits for good.
u cant tell a pig to fly.(airpork only exists in NTUC)
God help me break this feeling for good..
for drugs make u high..and leave u down later..
drugs make u soar .. but leave u sore later..
drugs make u cryyy....
drugs make u cry.
*damn..this could be a song...

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a tickle test i took.
drinking NESCAFE today~~woke at exactly 1.48am this morning..and couldnt sleep back.
blasted my mp3 till morning.
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went to play soccer with vic chris twins etc.
super hot..super dehydrated..vic headache..
ate at some snow ice place...watched a bit of xiao yuan superstar auditions..joked abt registering..din even noe there was this auditions tho..hw come?
aniwae..i onl remember that the girl hu sang the " fei yu" song is good..
duno wads the title..but inside got the words fei yu. can ani1 tell me the title pls?
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saturdae went to auditions for church band.
i think im in..they din directly tell me tho..jus ask me..after NS will i still be faithful??~well it depends la..alot of things could happen in 2 yrs..
then ask me go duno wad alpha plus..muz water baptism de ar..hmm
y so complicated...still ask me am i a christian..i dun look like one to u?
pls lo since i was born i was a christian.
i think i pretty much impressed the pastor..tho the music leader din look too happy to see sm1 his equal.
i think.
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watched phantom of the opera..
NICE MUSIC!!
1st time watch.
but basically the same old plot..
love triangle..2 guys 1 girl.
and then one guy always has to decide to do the most difficult thing..

aniwae y cant they make a musical where 2 girls fall for the same guy and one of the girls has to walk away??
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aniwae
i think ive found the cure.
realised that the ancient chinese are geniuses.
yi du gong du.
started running for NS preparation..
still remember a few months back i was the one telling iswan to get ready.
now its my turn.
fight poison with poison.
fight poisson with poisson.
fight pain with pain.
i hope im in time.
3.5 weeks.

so ytd nite was goin out..
passed by yishun underpass
and some bastard girl was walkin like a HELICOPTER.
pls lor
duno wad u were thinkinla
but..
if u were thinkin u are the queen of yishun underpass
think again.
if u think u are so pretty u have to swing ur arms to get ppl attn
thats a great start!
if u have arms that are too long, u can always go for partial amputations ok?
dunnid to live with the shame u noe?
so u wont SWIPE my earphones off my ears through SWIPING the wire
i appreciate my music more that ur HELICOPTER walk.
i dunno hu u are..but ar
if u wanna be famous, be like mJACKSON
he made his MOONWALK famous.
let me see u make ur HELI-WALK famous ok?
i'll be urR biGGEST FAN!!
cya.sincerely urs till then.
zzz

this morning i felt really sick
duno y stmchache
and could feel like blood boil in my body.
dizzy

aniwae

nearly lost my temper at work todae.
very nearly.
this is bad joel.
aniwae fuck all those ppl hu think im a fully auto washin machine~pop in clothes..it fills and spins and drys and tumbles all on its own.
im a joel ok?
jus doin my best.
dun show me ATTITUDE OK!

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went out with vic and chris open hse @ nus
law lecturer :zzzz
law booth girl: very helpful and informative.
dentistry girl: taoed vic
science guys: im a cyborg and its ok.
music girls: pls la u dun think u so great can...talk like u think im out of my depth...keyboard duel want or not???
haiz dun wan comment animore.
im @ a loss also..
i wish sm1 else would not be caught in such a bad situation..probably cos of sheer bad luck...
and that part of me really wants to help but wad can i do?
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went pool with jw
haha
status change liao wor
my pool is improving..but a bit too slow for my liking
haha
but i wan become a pro soon!
i think i need to practice more.
minitoons cos jw wan buy pressie for sm1.
haha

and slpt thru sunday.
tired.
many movies i wanna watch...
needa start askin ppl le.

Look around
Where do you belong
Don't be afraid
You're not the only one

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within

Life is short
So learn from your mistakes
And stand behind
The choices that you make

Face each day
With both eyes open wide
And try to give
Don't keep it all inside

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within

You've got the future on your side
You're gonna be fine now
I know whatever you decide
You're gonna shine

Don't let the day go by
Don't let it end
Don't let a day go by in doubt
You're ready to begin

Don't let a day go by in doubt
The answer lies within.

3oo was good.
theres a narrator..which few movies have..
a bit slow intro
but once the action starts..it gets gd.
if i have to sacrifice my life i'd also plot to take down as many as i can with me before i go.

very tired today..

~300~
later..
my kinda show.
1 life change many lives.
the way i wanna live.

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my results from the colour test i took.
u shd take it too..
its HIGHLY accurate for me.
HIGHLY.
i was stunned..find this the most reliable ticklen test to date.

arggggHHHHH
ayo
COMPARED TO MY SEC SCH FRENS RESULTSS..
my RESULTS ARE FUCKED!!!

many of them
4 A's
2 DISTINCTIONS FROM 2 S PAPERS

and i was the FUCKING TOP STUDENT CAN?
how could i allow myself to drop until like this???

an update on Dexperience..

part1~
i got better than expected marks for my a level results.
and i feel really guilty that i got it and others didnt...

like
cos i feel that other ppl also worked really hard.
yet they're let down.

dunno how to help and comfort them also.
but if anione wants to talk abt anything..can msg or msn me.
i think i shdnt talk so much le rite?
cos maybe some ppl are gonna think that i talk so much..
in the end still so good.
in the end still OK
wad right would i haf to talk abt it..i wouldnt understand etcetcetc...

but i would really wish that everyone hu's down can get up again soon...
please..

i always have this majOr PROBLEM
of CANT SAY WHAT I WANT TO SAY.
so much for gd gp.

but hope everyone wll be fine..and cheer up.
sincerely.
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part2~
like to thank God for my results.
cos i really dun deserve it as much as other ppl do.
i feel so GUILTY la
watching frens being sad..and cryinggg..
and pained cos how to help?
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wanted to go iceskating with gin & j and l
but rink was closed.
some hockey game...
so in the end we pooled.
my pool sucks..needa prac more..
but i dun think i go even more than 6 times yet..
so still can improve ba..
and arcaded.
haha
1st time play photohunt..
so small the screen
shooting games..
bishibashi
arcade certainly has its appeal..
went IMM get skates for my bro.
had this free facial treatment from dunno wad company..
then of course afta that they encourage u to go for continued treatment at their outlets.amk etc
thats when this woman got really mean..
jus cos i dun wan register for the 1st session @68
up is 200+
but only the 1st session 68
subsequent will be less than that 200+ but still more than the initial offer
so i say i cannot afford la
and fuck u la
leave my face alone la.
say me until so bad.
wad if i dun treat now gonna b worsee.
somemore goin ns later come out sure super bad...
alr very cheap le still cannot?
i still very polite say u dunno my situation..
wad i earn is wad i spend..
i dun haf support from ani1 cant u understand tat
aSShole la
ure not gonna MarrY me can?
woo customer also not liddat ma
say will even let me pay 50 1st then take the product worth 88
even if i run off with tat 18 unpaid dollas
also nvm cos only 18 to u
u trying to ridicule me?
run off with 18 dollas?
FUCK YOU la OLD WOMAN
i din name ur company only
not "i dunno" as i said earlier..
j: dun think i can afford every mth treatment 100+ ..cos only 1st mth 68
w: aiyo but u see ur lian alr liddat next time ni you qian de shi hou yao zuo ni you duo shao qian ke nen shi tai chi le
WOA
still got some more conversation i dun wan write
im soo polite and u are so rude.
so wad if im not interested cos i cant afford?
and fucK You even say u not afraid if i run of with the unpaid deposit.
u probably wont find a more honest person than me.
BITCH
oh
but if i see u lying on the road run over by a car i'll still call an ambulance for u..
yea

i dun bear grudges..
jus take it all out in this entry.

i wanna watch the movie called 300.
very interesting.
i feel..
that if i haf to die in a fight
i'd at least haf to take my opponent down and along with me too.
so my life wont be wasted.wont be in vain.
of course i'd like to take 10 with me too..
but im not ready for that yet.

after ns..
maybe i'll be much fitter than now.
but even now i noe
that one-on-one
no holds barred
only one winner stands
i can survive.up to an opponent <1.9 m tall and <85kg
dun ask me how i noe..
but ive some experience.
real life.

i got a standard to emulate.
my dad is 60 this year.
yet in a bike race he wins me.
in a strength test he aces me.
in a fight he wont have a prob.
im soooo lacking.

i need to improve myself a LOT MORE.
looks like NAPFA test A is no use.
ns next mth..
gotta start running to get fit again.