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Sunday, April 30, 2006 @ 10:04:00 PM

finished yet ANOTHER VCD
hahaha

movie addict who doesnt like to watch TV

sounds weird?
haha

not dun like la..
just that i seldom watch..
coz i feel no urge to switch the tv on i guess..
rather listen to music or surf net these days..

have been thinking..
wad will i do at the end of this yr when i have to RETURN MY TABLET?????

i will MISS MSN!!!
i will not be able to BLOG!!!
i will of course MISS MSN
and miss MSN
and MISS MSN!!!

hais
MSN!!!!!!!!

hooked liao
everynite

can talk to frens..
lets me talk to old frens
work frens
all frens
KEEPS OUT HOMEWORK
KEEPS OUT BOREDOM!!!

everynite(almost)
so nice..
pull my little table to my window
on my tablet..
pray for a weak wireless signal..
start msn..
open windows media player
listen to favourites and chat
crunch peanuts..
look at the yellow glare of streetlamps just outside..
ideal..
zone out and dream about stuff....
......

w/o msn..
all my music stored in this com...
no more contacts...
dunno how im gonna tahan the boredom

sigh


anyway the movie i finished is
HOUSE OF WAX
nice

i was rather scared this time..
suspense factor 9/10

chilly landscaping
sinister character plots..
nice..
but wad i find scary i also found weird

u noe the wax figures?
y they are so real?
coz the ppl are actually waxed alive rite?
so if ur waxed
how can ur eyes still move?
u cant breathe rite?
how long can one survive after being waxed alive?
like Wade..
the one at the grand piano in the show..
his eyes can still move..
scary

plus the old lady at the window..

her body can sill move..

i mean then when ur skin is waxed it becomes so brittle meh?
like Wade's skin
his fren touch and try to remove the wax then it just broke up like tau sar pia u noe?
just crumbling away...
also creepy taht scene..
plus the fact that the trudy sons used all sorts of primitive TOOLS to immobilise their victims first..
like pliers la
spanner
crossbow..
so BRUTAL!!!

other than those scary bits
still mentally sane after it..

haha

i want to try SCARIER ones..
anyone have SAW?

hahaha

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Saturday, April 29, 2006 @ 10:06:00 PM

finished deuce bigalow..

ok la

quite funny

but depends on ur mood when u watchin..
can be irritating

its not even lame..
thats the problem

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listenin to backlot of 70s songs..

must learn a few..

really nice

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tutorials staring at me..
afraid of touchin it..

i wonder why.
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father's home

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Friday, April 28, 2006 @ 5:28:00 PM

bloggin in da lib
coz its raining dogs and cats...

shag..
no strength left..
mingbang is strong(but dun think he's runnin 5k)
wen jing is strong..
yin hou is as strong..
jason is even stronger..
calvin is slightly less strong..
taurus dunno gonna field who..
must be ppl who are damn strong
i am the least strong...

dunno how to run
9 may
this yr can get top 8 very heng le..
but i wont be happy..
because i wont

calvin...
mornin run 18 rounds..
just now do 6 rouinds..
TONIGHT gonna do some more MILES..
arrgggh

cmi

i run a bit already wanna die liao

i think i know what i'll do..
just train the minimal and hope for the best ba
who cares...

actually i care
a bit
ego

dun wanna deprove fr las yr

damn depressed kinda sian
dunno wadta do
dunno where i last left my LAN cable..
think last time dunno bring where in the class use some1 else port then din take out..

anyone if u see an extra LAN cable its mine ok?
thanks

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dun think im goina study tonight also
wan finish deuce bigalow disc 2 and half of disc 1
DAMN DISGUSTING LA
comin from me...
usu quite immune to these kinda things..
but wa lau..
see his face..
his lines..
damn irritated..
damn disgusted..

dunnno la

dunno

dunno

dunno

DUNNO

..........................................................................................................................................

btw i really have to say something
and ive wanted to say this since..


since...

since
MONDAY


really feel ...

what i wanna say:



downloaded most of the songs on the ATARIS 2004 album:

"so long ASTORIA"

i love the album..
all the songs..
just..
fantastic is an understatement..

finally i meet a band that has artful meaningful lyrics pei great punk/rock/loud emotional catchy heartwrenching tunes...

wow...
fav 2 tracks at the moment:
saddest song
and my fav ataris song since sec 4:
boys of summer..
perfect lyrics.
perfect.
perfect.
perfect.

..............................................................................................................
so will-less

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Thursday, April 27, 2006 @ 9:49:00 PM

bball today intra class..
fun tto play wif everyone..
tho i damn emb 2dae
i shhot so lan
so off form
dunno y
must be nerves
coz new playin ppl ma
at least i redeemed myself with my last buzzer-beating shot..
haha
like is said..

actually wasnt hopin to play bball anymore
play so many times le
SIAN
but now..
hopin can play next wk..
again
so i can show that my shootin isnt SO bad ok?
roll ur eyes evveryone i dun care
coz i cant see ya
rite?

it really isnt
ya
def not as gd as al but not soo bad as 2dae too lar
oman

who am i tryin to kid anyway
rite?
who cares
.........................................................................................

just finished weddin crashers vcd
God i love this show...

its so ..
so parallel..

man..
no one will ever know how i feel...

i mean..
at the same time u know its never gonna happen?

being intentionally vague as usual

those who know me?..
yea..
i am like that.

back to the me everyone sees.
10/5 stars.
the show won me over.
music was perfect..
story was the usual true love forever type...
but it was crafted so well..
every nuance in their expression..
claire..
john..
jeremy..
gloria..

ever since i did the MOE workplan seminar thingy last yr
i knew
that i was arts
not science
i mean ever since i learnt the piano i knew that..
but doin the seminar thing..
arrangin the music
fitting the words
visualising the whole setup to fit the sounds..
the impact..
the feel..
smoke..
mischief..
the earworm
the twist
the everything..

i want to be in the film/music industry someday
some big corporation
not to be an actor.
statin the obvious rite?
haha
know i dun have wad it takes..
the looks..
the style..
the face..
the height
the built

i dun mind bein BEHIND THE SCENES kinda guy
i dun nid my stupid face on some tv
i dun crave attn

i just love to see the whole picture in perfection..
the whole concept
the masterpiece..
the story..
unfurling in tandem with the plot chaperoned by the appropriate music..
tender music
tough music
strong music
cheesy music
lame music
romantic..
joyous
uplifting
sorrowful and bereaved..

music videos..

oh

i want to do them all.
this tablet has enabled me to watch many music videos..
mostly chinese song ones..
a few jap and korean..
and i love more than a few..

some videos just make the song more meaningful..
some just kill the song..

i want to be a master of both.

coz i dont want my songs to be killed
by some industry idiots who dont feel the same way i do..
coz they are too professional..
know wad i mean?
go figure..
think slowly.
too professional.

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im rambling

i talk too much sometimes.

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haha

yea i know

forget the show

its neva neva neva gonna happen yo!..

im just kiddin myself like john.
am i?
was he?
nida slp..
missed runnin today..
and iswan was just tellin me about this guy who feels sore all ove trainin for the 5K

who cares man
lose lose lar

whoever he is
i dont care
ur head has to be strong
to command ur body to MOVE
i can say for certain
whoever this guy is?
he wont win me

wad i mean is..
if i finish 15th
he will come in LAST.



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Wednesday, April 26, 2006 @ 10:40:00 PM

just finished coach carter
borrowed from VIC

yea
good show
i like
4/5 stars
definitely..

wont be botherin with galvanic or electrolysis tut for this wk.
maybe ova the wkends i'll try doin it
i need T.i.m.E.o.U.t.
i am so tired
stressed
over nth i suppose..
havent even exams yet rite?
yea
so wad have i gotta be stressed about?

bio test..
aaaaahhhh
D
and i did study..
even though its VERY minimal
HELL
wad m i supposed ta DO?

judgin all ard i suppose everyone is DAMN affected by the TOLL of school
the TOIL of tryin to catch up
to PASS
to make it
lets all NOT give up ok?
try to put aside all the disturbing thoughts for now..
thoughts of failure..
not makin it..
lettin down everyone..
the class..
passin o's and failin a's

..

one word
to everyone..
:
perseverance(defn from dictionary.com, a legacy from our dear ex-ct)
-
Steady persistence in adhering to a course of action
a belief
or a purpose
steadfastness

we can make it if we try
there is still TIME ya
we have the june holidays...
our exams are in NOVEMBER
lets work our way there steadily..
consistently
doing our best even if we have a CRAZY teacher who allow himself to come in late just because he has the FLU
what a sissy
EFFEMINATE
but doesnt allow us to go to the toilet even though
HE ARRIVED LATER than (some) of us
gives himself priveleges huh

wont waste my breath attackin him
what every1 must remember is:
never to give up.
hang in there
worry.. but dont OVER - WORRY
there is still time to improve.

CHEERS

and keep trying..
every1 do their best for everything..
studies
or COMPETITION
keep at it...

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Monday, April 24, 2006 @ 4:53:00 PM

something's wrong with blogger yesterdayt...
slow..
incomplete loading..

wth..
mp3 PLAY button spoilt..
how to listen to music tonight?..

also dunthink i remember where's the warranty card...

FUCK LA

wad is happening?
so much HW!
now my small pleasure is taken from me...


my CCA!!!!!
dun want tkd!
why is it called a cca if we are not participating?
really MISS you.
of course here you refers to jamming ONLY.
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now MR TAN'S LESSON!!!

I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH HOW YOU RUN THE LESSON!!!

2 WORDS YOU USE INCESSANTLY:
"THAT'S STRANGE..."
OF COURSE
THE LIST JUST GOES ONNN
AND ON
AND ON
AND ON
AND ONNNN!!!!!!
NOT GONNA TRY TO THINK OF WAD YOU SAID

YOU NINCOMPOOP!!
MOST OF US JUST GOT OUR QN PAPER TODAY!
AND WHO KNOWS Y HANDED UP PASSAGES TO THE CORRECT BOXES DONT RETURN TO THEIR OWNERS...


U USE THEM AS TOILET PAPER RIGHT?
I MEAN..
YOU DONT HAVE TO BE SHY IN ADMITTING THAT LA..

SOME PPL JUST NEED MORE RESISTANT MATERIALS TO CLEAN THEMSELF YA?

and you think the indirect way with which you express urself is sooooooo cool..

" i seem to have two sticky notes written my desktop..
one is for tuesday..
one for thursday..
but it seems that none of u have attempted ur qnsssss!!!!"

sux
weirdo
bad VIBESSSS

eeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


__________________________________________________________________

I AM IN A bad MOOD.
STAY AWAY or ELSE...
this is taking a toll on me...
i can sense something in u...
it hurts me..
of course
u never had any idea to begin with.

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Sunday, April 23, 2006 @ 8:19:00 PM

actually it doesnt make sense rite?..
if im running for myself, y am i training?
i mean..
unless there's a reason to y i need to run sooo fast..
and impress who?

dun feel like training using this reasoning...
i have no one to let down ma...


thigh and hamstring pain like shit

plus last yr's right shin pain..its back..
feel like suing the tellytubby hill for causing the pain..
never had shin pains till we trained on the tellytubby hill 5 rounds...

cant even climb my block the stairs with ease.

u have no idea at all...

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Saturday, April 22, 2006 @ 7:51:00 PM

running is a painful experience..
an arduous process...
JUST for the 5k..
worth it meh?

one doesnt realise how weak one's legs are till one runs the distance..
and hits the frequency..
standing is such a pain now...

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Friday, April 21, 2006 @ 7:56:00 PM

f.i.N.a.l.l.Y!!!

im starting to relish the start of the weekends..

coz it provides a time to rest

free from the thought of anymore teachers coming in and piling homework on you

at least for two days....

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after school

had to go for some sort of trial for 400m..
in the end slack around a lot..
after run..
leona and her fren go off early..
left me and rasalas hse capt and bernice..
dunno spelling huiyin correct or wrong..
played bomberman w/her

met someone called kimberlyn..
also dunno spell correct or wrong
she runnin 1500 i think
nice to talk to..
her voice very soft
quite fit tho

trainin hampered by rain
huiyin suggested playin bball..
so we 3 plus en huo and masthan played bball..
masthan like to crap la..
say he unity sec star player..
dunno true anot..
but he play ok..
en huo good man..
got the STYLE factor like tyng cheong..
sth jasper and i dont have..

supported tennis ppl..
if im not mistaken we lost..
doubles and singles..
but the cheerleading guy(forgot his name) put up a super effort on his part..
*applause and salute*
really respect him for that
had a super POWER serve la
ace
after ace
after
ace..
wow...

cant forget the image in my mind now..
tho temasek had like so many noisy supporters..
basically apart from us no one cheered for the ij team...
morale quite low..
but everyone like so sporting..
at the end ij cheer for ij
tj cheered for ij..

huiyin ask me play bullet..
never even hear of bullet b4..
then i found out its sorta like free throw competition..
at first she scary..
chop and chop
chop and chop
and
chop

i almost die..
i think left 3 lives..
then i comeback..
chop and chop
and chop
and chop
and chop..
finally..
careless..
so the number of bullets rises..
one careless shot..
hit the backboard...
gone..
lost to a girl bullet..

but whocares..
first time some more
and she bball team..
haha

ran to cool down with kim and masthan
rain started again
stop runnin
talkin in canteen..
noe sth new too...
but shant say..
coz its not good to put rumours on blogs w/o person's permission..
whether its true or not..
haha

feel that the 2nd half of today changed the whole depressing math test math tutorial i-am-such-a-fool feeling..

*happiness is fleeting...

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Thursday, April 20, 2006 @ 2:20:00 PM

sitting here now i realise how much time i need
and how much time i've squandered
yes
squandered

suddenly remembered that word..
recall first knowing it when i read the fairytale
" the flying trunk"..
i think around before p1
damn long ago

i dont forget memories easily

now i have so much to make up for
so much that i have to sacrifice just to make up for IT
lost my heart for study
but just cant lose it .......
lost so much brains slacking around..

i must propose this theory that regardless of whether u use brains or not
brain cells still die..
so u might as well start using them..
i find i m so stupid after one yer of laziness.
even i dont believe..
but i have to..

coz i cant deny it anymore..
just like i shouldnt deny it anymore.
yea

so math is tmr

prediction from the master pundit
:
single digit.

*in desperation..
over studies
and feeling hopeless over...

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Tuesday, April 18, 2006 @ 2:15:00 PM

down
and also dont know why

bio test tmr
cmi

math test tmr
lagi cmi

sorry la har mr tan n khoo?
my brain lao le..

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Monday, April 17, 2006 @ 2:08:00 PM

i am really lost.
acting as if everything is still fine..
still showing confidence..
still relaxing
still slacking

i am also very tired.
acting as if im fine..
trying to be energetic..
still strong
still smiling...

in truth
im very exhausted
physically
mentally
EmOtiOnaLLy
unknown to a number
the best number
the number that has stuck in my mind ever since...


the riddle of that number is killing me
softly
with its songs...

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@ 10:58:00 AM

church with evergreen friend..

home

capcom

hospital

see bro..

siao

see him struggling to breathe..

crazy

dunno how come can suddenly get this..

so..
random la i mean

wheezing
coughing
rapid breathing
cant eat
med caused him diarrhea
lungs got fluid
worse than last time.
looks skinnier too.

feel scared for him.
hope he gets better soon

gonna try to finish chem energetics tut..
plus assignment 1 and 2
cant believe 3 days gone so fast
im so slack sia

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Saturday, April 15, 2006 @ 7:28:00 PM

diagnosis-
my bro has bronchitis.

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Friday, April 14, 2006 @ 8:11:00 PM

happy good friday!
went see iswan cal and peng at mac doin cop
they had free food too la
on the house
saw the MP
is it khaw boon wan?
din see clearly..
and not sure too..
but damn slack cop..
fun

went queensway today
..


buy SHOES!

brooks
racer
super lite la
nice fit too..

orange and white..
looks very "virgin"
if u know wad i mean..
haha

from $119
down to..

$79!!!
wow
not bad la
i think cheaper than sports link
or other places..
thanks to recommendation by the guys..
is jk peng cal
haha
actually din noe abt this place
lol
spent like 2.5 hrs choosin..
my shoe looks so white..
with orange trimmings..
couldnt decide at first..
coz got light green model..
but then that one whole shoe all green..
and since i had gren shoe b4..
and din have white shoe since pri school..
so chose orange one..

partly coz budget too ba
haha

father sure gonna scold me for spendin so much when he not in
buy shoes..
new mp3..
when he looks at my bank acc..
dun care la..
i need the shoes..
nva bought branded shoes till now lorx..

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@ 11:00:00 AM

HAIZZZZZ

disappointed with PW results..

words cant describe la huh

lets not be sad for too long "the connoiseurs" ..kiex?
and everyone else too..

anyway im not good with words too

loook at my gp now

didnt even get into excell programme..

yeeaa..

joel sucks.

period.

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confidence at all time low.
hahha
as if i had confidence to begin with
cant even look at some ppl in the eye..
always first to break the gaze...
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take care of ur ankle ar calvin..
i hate ankle injuries too
an active person like me
i guess no one like ankle injuries..
yeea
take care ya
for ur future...

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gonna slack
can feel the depress mood coming on man
im so not used to this man
i cant get outta this mEsSs
cant get outta this SHIIITTTT

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dunno when pw grp goin outta eat..

but only when cal is betta ya..

dun wan cal pay alone

wan share wif him
bill

spendin $$$ makes me feel betta
haha
but not much to begin with
anyway 6mths more goin find work le..
so shd be ok
or else go NS
then oso get paid
so either way ok
_________________________________

like to see you happy.
smiling
eyes

haha..
u still dont know..
never will
_________________________________


feel like crying now.
portal has closed.
i think
also feel like laughing like crazy.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006 @ 3:47:00 PM

im dying of maths.

tmr release pw results..

for me its like stepping into a portal away..

away

and

away
...

kinda reminds me of the spiderman cartoon series...
i am so.....
....
.

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decided to train for 5000m race
figured that tho i would probably not be the last in if i do not train,
that means if i train i will do better
aim:
finish top five.
can le
achievement for me..
coz i am s slacker.
dun tink i can maintain regular trainings too..
but will try.
i pledge to
...
last chance to make my mark against tommy chen's army of warriors and bulls.
i represent the lion.
i am the renegade.


just realised that this is my 88th post..
lucky no right?
hope tmr results can be equally good too..
and a lvls too..
and gp marks for everybody too..
kinda disappointed i din cut it for the EXCELL programme
shows that my essays really suck more than i think they do..
i should just shut up..
i talk too much right?
who listens, anyway?

~missin*

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006 @ 11:33:00 AM


what i would LOVE to own!!!!
ROLAND AX7 49 key Hand-held Contro
saw on super-band
apparently the one of the CLICK-Five also use it
ben-romans i think
i want to perform with it too!!
finally
something to glorify the keyboard player!!!!!!

only costs 299 pounds
ONLY right?
yaya
multiply that by 3.5 approx
way outta my league
apparently it seems a new creation
only Roland seems to have it..
KORG YAMAHA all dont seem to have it
but i WANT!!!!!
can swing around like guitar
feet apart
knees bent
low-slung pose..

DISTRACTED LIAO
haiz
i tink after NS then i can afford one..
BIO!!!!
mr tan...
sian
dunno wads absolute wad wad wad...
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ok
my brother's out now
got hooked up with dunno wad puffer dunno wad to open his alveola spaces
scary
like lungs collapse
got lotsa medicine to take
dunno y happen to him too
haish
...
remembering a song by the beatles:
"life is very short, and there's no time..."
true true
live for the moment i guess
live for the present in hope for the future
live the best one can ever be
always
treasure friendships
cherish those you care about
let them know
after all
you never know when " tomorrow never comes..."
another lyric line from another song..
"if tmr never comes...."
pretty sentimental huh..

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Sunday, April 09, 2006 @ 7:44:00 PM

MOVE ON TO THE NEXT BLOG

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED

LET ME ATTEMPT TO DEADPAN WHILE YOU DECIDE IF YOU WAT TO HEED MY ADVICE:
I KNOW I DONT HAVE LOOKS OR ANYTHING

NOT THE HUNK TYPE

NOT THE INTELLECTUAL EITHER

BUT WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ IS SERIOUS STUFF

AND UNPLEASANT

FOR THOSE WHO HATE DEPRESSING ENTRIES:


PLS MOVE ON

____________________________________________


HAHA

ENOUGH OF DEADPAN

ITS NOT EXACTLY MY MOOD NOW

SO LET ME STOP
____________________________________________

right
finally my brother is in hospital
have been waiting for him to go in for so long
i mean
he's been having phlegm day in day out for like so many days now..
its crazy
and parents dont wan him checked up
cause controlled by father
he says no
believes in chinese medicine
ya right
so everytime treat using herbs and what have you
today:
found out he has a serious LUNG INFECTION
left lung
chest pains
whee-eezing
cant breatheee
gasping for breath when sleeping
cant sleep
last night
so scary
i was scared
i admit
fact no 1 abt me:
when i admit anything
you know im serious
usually im rather quiet and mild.

so today afternoon
sent him to hospital
still awaitin x ray results
mother went with him
lookin after youngest bro at home
sis at home too
lucky father not in spore now
or else sure kena stop
cant go check up properly
i mean this is kinda stupid la

it didnt strike him that sth is very wrong
its like ongoing for more than a few months now
CRAZY!!!

ITS CRAZY U KNOW????

let me state why

NONE OF US
i repeat NONE OF US IN MY FAMILY
the kids
as in us
HAVE EVER BEEN TO A WESTERN DOC B4

NO POLYCLINICS APART FROM BABY TAT TIME INJECTIONS
NONE AFTER THAT

SICK?
WHAT TO DO?


17 years back its :
boil barley water
add loquat jelly
drink until u r ok

13 years ago:
add lo han kuo and xia sang ju
to boiling water
drink till ok

7-9 years ago:
wu hua cha
lo han kuo
xia sang ju
some red colour pill i forgot the name
or rest till u ok

recent years its:
grass herbs
bought by my father
like ma huang
ge gen
etc
i forgot many of the names

bluntly put it:
none of these have much uses
maybe psychologically
or physically relieve the pain
headache or fever a bit
but most of the time its up to ur own trusty body to come up with its own battle lines
battle armour
tanks
guns
troops
and bombs to deal with the virus or bacteria
or sickness

i SWEAR
no doctor in singapore has medical records
of us 4kids maybe until today
everything was done at home
left to God
mentality was:
who ask you be so careless go get sick?
father always say:
i not sick your mother not sick u all can get sick
it true
my father has one of the best health ive ever seen
17 years of living i see him sick less than 2 times
that should give you some idea how strong he is
scold knn lj cjb kia for getting sick

CRAZY LA
CRAZY
CRAZY
CRAZY



not over exaggerating
in case anyone is rolling their eyes out there

not usu one to wash dirty linens in public
but i feel that i have to write this as a reminder to ME
NEVER TO BE LIKE THAT EVER
to my kids next time
to anyone i see on the street
to anyone who needs attention
help
to alleviate suffering

AND ITS NOT $$$ issue either
i may not have much $$$
compared to most ppl my age coz of my low allowance
but my father has NO such probs
he was a MUSICIAN!!!
my dream!
playing in clubs
his band with aziz they all
hyatt
HOTELS
all he play b4

piano teacher
guitar teacher
plays the flute accordian
piano
guitar
violin
pipe organ
er hu
harmonica
PROFICIENTLY
you wont believe it till u see it
he has $$$
why doesnt he send his sick kids to a DOCTOR????
i am a christian
the bible has always said to obey one's parents always
respect them
i have tried
naturally i din succeed everytime
and i dont know if its wrong to question
but WHY DOES HE DO THAT?
is it his belief in chinese medicine?
or the body healing itself NATURALLY?

so from all these that ive been through
i can tell you
i respect the human body a lot
created by the Lord God Almighty-
perfect

let me tell you some things what it can do( what i can remember off the cuff now):
- it can tahan 42degrees fever for more than 3 days, and bring it down slowly by the 4th
full recovery by the 5th(no medication unless u count barley water)
- a broken wrist with one bone sticking out takes 6 months to heal and close to a year for the owner to be able to CLENCH a fist again
-a five year old alone can take PLENTY of DAMAGE
ever play street fighter?
yea
similar to that kinda damage
broken front teeth
bleeding head
bleeding back
dislocated joints
suffocation
a nine year old child can survive 40 strokes of a bundle of 5 canes banded together
and plenty more!!!
click HERE for the full list ya
and BEST OF ALL, ITS FREE!!!
ITS FREE!!!!
NO GIMMICKS NO FRILLS!!
JUST THE PRODUCT IN ITS ENTIRETY YEA?


so now you all know why i can be bothered to run so fast
or how come i dont train i still run so fast rite?
CAUSE,
i know for certain
after all these things
after all these years
how TOUGH the body is
the difference whether one SURVIVES OR DIES is OFTEN HOW STRONG YOUR MIND IS
WHETHER YOU CAN CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS
OR LET YOUR EMOTIONS CONTROL YOU

ADMIT TO URSELF THAT YOU ARE LOST
AND YOU WILL DIE
CLING ON TO EVERY BREATH YOUR HEART PUMPS AROUND YOUR SYSTEM

AND YOU WILL LIKELY StAND A chAnCE
HOWEVER SLIM FOR SURVIVAL

the body can be abused and live to tell the tale
u can push it to its limits
and thats what its done in sports
like the 5000 m race
for instance

feel bad citicising my parents like that
sorry


bad impression now rite all of you who read this?
im sorry

LOL
this is the TIP of the iCEbErG mAN
what sank the titanic and created probably the most well remembered lines a couple will ever say to each other...


hope my brother is ok
it cant be too late

i admit:
i am worried.
-from the guy who has never seen a doctor in the past 15 years of my life for anything except since 2 years ago

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Saturday, April 08, 2006 @ 10:19:00 PM

quite a wasted day
spent lotsa time just sittin down daydreamin..
actually not really..
coz i dun think i was thinkin of anythin at all.
i think its called "stone"
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nothin much to say
except afternoon go buy food at old work place
happen to meet old work fren
saw her deliverin shampoo..
chatted
overheard workers discussin hair loss..
and how to deal with it
apparently they say that yun nam and all those adverts dont work
use sth else instead:
costs only 9.80 i tink
1 bottle of amber liquid
massage head with wine first
not all types of wine..
got one hokkien word to describe..
temporarily forgot the word now
but i know XO comes under that category..
then massage one capful of the amber liquid onto ur scalp.
thats it
so simple right?
apparently it works..
at least thats wad we were talkin abt today
them went to pinpoint the causes of hair loss.

might want to listen up:

this is said by the one that delivers PANTENE shampoo:

when u shampoo, dont let the shampoo come into contact with ur scalp for too long
rinse ALL of thoroughly.
CONDITIONING:
conditioner shd also NOT contact scalp
its only meant for the hair
not the scalp
cause its chemicals sometimes contact with scalp may cause hair to drop out.
true or not?
just thought id inform everyone..
let me noe if im wrong or its a wrong view presented by the PANTENE delivery person...
hahahaha

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Friday, April 07, 2006 @ 8:00:00 PM

april 7
one day after friendship day

went tiong bahru for last submission of scores for competition
staff at kim seng cc really helpful and kind
really appreciate their helpin me..
really goin the extra mile to help me..
tho its none of their business,
,,,
i will learn from their example.
i promise.

saw a very chio gerl
haha
i say very chio must believe..
u noe me
normally i see chio or not chio oso i wont comment in front of anyone..
coz i more shy than peng is they all
so when i actually say sth..
u noe tat i mean it..
hahaz


homeward bound
saw innovian gal with putside bf
at mrt
din tink she attached
u noe wad i mean..
saw in e reflection of the tunnel doors
wanted to turn n see hu she is
but resisted the urge
in the end when i turn
they were nowhere to be seen..
so couldnt confirm the class..
tho i can speculate from her reflection...
anyway thats not at all important.
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train home
so another innovian
and another
saw jes n her bf
wah
long time no see
like..
got me thinkin
that ns..
makes fat ppl thin..
does it make thin ppl thinner?
no rite?
accordin to po her skinner bro came out lookin better...
more brawn..
hope same for me too..
i could use broader shoulders and a larger chest please.
haa
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peaceful mood now..
less stress now no more score to rush
tho i couldn really be bothered to give them a full score..
(gave them slightly more than half only!)
still cant unlock 4 more streetfighter characters...
play on pc really hard..
coz diff button configs
feel like slppin early tonite
a lot of hw too sia
sai
eat shit la
dun tink i'll be doin much too..
so HARD!!!

die my tablet got 1 virus 6 spyware liao
too many songs download..
y are ppl so evil wanna attach virus to songs?
now my tablet keep lagging
hanging
keys sometimes press to no avail...
sian
gonna play leaf green and street fighter.
nite everyone

*i believe that:
if its not meant for u, it will never be yours
noe wad that means rite?~

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Thursday, April 06, 2006 @ 8:21:00 PM

cheer up k alvin?
understand..
12 + yrs is a long time..

smile again.
=)
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rainy pe today
to cal: ur so fit now compared to last yr man..
way to go!
think u shd run e sports dy 5000m
run with me
support mi la
ur 2.4 now fastest in class
good chance..
think about it?
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i like ice-cream
makes me be in a good mood
gotta do my music scores for submission tmr tonight
or risk disqualification.
dun wan tat
think ima kicked out of musicians club..
cuz of my results..
STUPID BLOCK TEST
really disappointed..
and mr tan has NO sense..
leave me alone la
i dun wan come ur TKD !
i rather give up TKD than musicians' club!
i dun wan give up my chance to play music
no
no
no

mr ng..
pls reconsider?
mini-hartbreak for me..
but if u say NO then wadda i do rite?
what CAN i do?


*learning to accept
let go
focus on something more important
(yppah r u)

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Wednesday, April 05, 2006 @ 4:51:00 PM

so stupid
gp compre oso dun understand
math oso so dumb
how to catch up?
i need help..
for a lot of things..
whatever that means to you.


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justv found out 2 days ago that they absolutely insist on competitors
producing the scores for the songs and instrumentals submitted..
i have TILL FRIDAY!!!

DIE LA

so hard..
some more no software to help me..
actually din feel like doin..
wanted to tell the person to forgo me..
nvm..
but then..
but then..
i waste so much time on this and money oso..
tho like $40 not a lot maybe to some ppl but a lot to me
so i will do it..
and coz especially the instrumental..
the 1st part was written for sth else..
but now cant really use that le..
that theme is what made me decide to do the score..
no matter how difficult or no time i have
cuz it means sth to me
so i will have to get the score down by friday latest..
or disqualified..
thats WORST

why am i plagued by deadlines all around?

dont tell me NO JAMMING LE TOO?
i will be so disappointed..
thats like the only other thing that still keeps me interested in coming to ijc amidst the pile of trash i face:
tutorials
tests
blablablablablablabla

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Tuesday, April 04, 2006 @ 5:19:00 PM

lessons learnt
#1: never be too confident
#2: i can fail gp.
#3: my gp sucks
#4: i need to do something about my gp
#5: there is not a STABLE subject that i have.
#6: i have less than 7 months left to gao dim CHEM MATHS AND BIO.
#7: and now i have GP.
#8: gp is a threat to me
#9: gp teachers are dangerous people
#10: im a very very very very very very long way from an A in GP

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sad sia

wa lau

how could this happen to me...
maybe i deserve it.
ya
i think i do
too confident
too confident
too confident

lower than soo many ppl..
its not being lower that gets to me..
just thought that i wrote it well.
for the first time my feeling was wrong.
a sign that i cant trust my feelings anymore
cant trust my feelings anymore...
no wonder...
no wonder...
no wonder...

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chem mock spa:
jasper told me that i did wrongly.
that the units for the heat capacity is KJ/k
so i din divide
by temperature change

WHAT AM I DOING???????


i gotta start to wake up.
two things to remember:
#1: forget it- its not going to happen. long time dead. believe me
#2:wake up. 7 months is not a long time for 4 subjects.

heart pain sia

the last time i really really heart pain over something i really value/treasure/like was like when?
last year?

now my strongest subject since primary school has failed me.
i am so doomed

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napfa test was ok..
28 points.
dropped points as predicted: standing broad jump.
got a C
my legs are short
and they're weak i guess.
u can see that i dun walk much..
lazy to walk.
bike a lot
maybe thats Y.
must be only developed my biking muscles.
when will i ever get perfect 30 pts?
in NS?
oh ya
CONGRATS TO ALVIN CHEO..
30 PTS WOR
IMPRESSIVE!!!

new personal best for 2.4: 10.02mins
1 sec after vic and my closest race finishing to him too.
really admire vic for his running style and determination.
he keeps telling me that i lack the WILL to PUSH.
thats Y he's faster.
he pushes.
body mind and soul
i guess thats right.
or maybe he's just being humble

my napfa results
will list now:
bj: 230(max of ability)
shuttle run: 9.9s
pull-up: 11(min ")
situp: 43 (conserve e)
sit and reach: 59cm
2.4: 10.02m

best results ive ever seen
din really train too..
pe muz do i down there slack slack
thats the problem with me..
i could be better
but i am ignorant
complacent
overconfident

i should change i guess

dunno whether to train for 5000m sports day
so fast kena arrow
maybe should ask CAL
he sounds so seasoned
trains daily some more
COZ I DUN FEEL LIKE SPENDING MY FREE TIME RUNNING!!!
i have NO MOOD TO TRAIN
so UNLESS IM CONVINCED THAT TRAINING FOR THIS EVENT WILL GET ME A Medal,
i will not train.
just run lor that day
who wanna win go win lor
seems like RASALAS only has two CLASSES.
vic is right.
really.
everytime got race only will see bernice and huiyin coming to find us
RASALAS cant only have good runners in her class and our class rite?
i mean
u should hold a ENTIRE HOUSE MEETING or sth
ARROW THOSE WHO ARE SUPER
those who are fantaastic
get them to run
that way we wont see so many SAGGI and TAURUS dominating the track events MAH
those who are truly good are NOT RUNNING!
im like SOOOO average lor pls
i mean..
nto complainin that i have to run
i LOVE competition
any form
it exerts a kinda thrill in me
excitement
adrenaline
the feelin of highness
no other thought but the race
its amazing
but im just saying that
for RASALAS to MOVE UP:
take that TIP- HOUSE MEETING.
get those truly gifter runners.

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mdm lee was so childish today.
i wonder Y
really have to control myself from making a snide remark about her on my blog.
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somethings that i would definitely redo if i can reverse time and be back in 2005 jan in ijc
:
join cross country as cca
tommy chen tell me how many times le..
i din join.
coz i see no fruit in being so fast
now i have some regrets..
cuz i din think i would get arrowed for so many races:
feel that i wasted the breath of those who cheered me during cross country and any other race.
i mean..
ppl cheer for u
u hui bao ma
u get a good standing
i merely got a mediocre placing:24
not join tkd
mr tan is a poor manager.
still join musicians' club
music is my life and about everything dear to me is related to music

start study earlier
dun slack so much
dun bully bryan lim
the rest..
pw all..
i tink no change.
no complaints.

i let myself down
let everyone down

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Sunday, April 02, 2006 @ 8:17:00 PM

watched
LAST SAMURAI
today.
i liked it
at a loss of words as to how to describe it.
its good.
questioning:
what is honour?
is being patriotic in honour of urself or ur country?
honour: follow one's HEART?
or follow ORDERS to the hilt?

courage:
where does it BEGIN?
where does COURAGE turn into COWARDICE?
left me thinking.

this ALGREN character..
he follows his heart.
he does what he has to do.
even though its against his orders.
he learns compassion
humility
honour
and
courage.

complicated issues here.
the one that quietly binds them all together is pehaps the geatest and the most tacky of them all:
L.O.V.E.

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@ 1:09:00 PM

went cycling today
familiarising myself the route from woodlands to town
alone
unless you count my mp3 and my small green bike.
miss my racer.
but less than something else.
i seem to be doing a lot of things alone
do i mind?
not really.
do i feel lonely?
not really.
unless im thinking of somebody.
SLOW cycling builds my stamina i find.
thats why i think i run quite fast tho im not in sports cca and i never train.
hope i can get 28 points for NAPFA this year.
only willing to drop points in standing broad jump.
must blame my short legs.
actually planned to drop by padang for hollerback semis..
but then i think:
i wearing shorts and t-shirt?
and my bicycle?
how to go in?

so i go back..
past paradiz..
peace centre..
thought i saw an old fren..
enter mac..
thought of stoppin..
but den saw weather not good.
long journey home.
felt really sian.
this time felt bored.
a bit lonely.
always got mood to go no mood to come back.
dunno y

reach home
look at my transport in plants notes on the floor
reminded that iswan already read it..
but i havent
tho i agreed to read it same night as him.
NO DISCIPLINE
reminded of this quote i heard somewhere:
" lAziness is A riCh mAn's diseAse."

heard it before?
the thing is:
im nowhere near rich.
so its a generalisation
most quotes are..anyway.
thats also a generalisation.
in fact in our lives whenever we need to get anything done or need to persuade someone to see our point of view or do something
we often resort to generalisations.
things are so PARADOXICAL

dont understand paradoxes?
check the internet.
dun feel like explaining.
i covered paradoves in pri 4 class..
my teacher..
she was great..
her english lesson was never boring.
not like mr TAN's.


JUST
UNBEARABLE.
the feeling ive come to know.

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