not dun like la.. just that i seldom watch.. coz i feel no urge to switch the tv on i guess.. rather listen to music or surf net these days..
have been thinking.. wad will i do at the end of this yr when i have to RETURN MY TABLET?????
i will MISS MSN!!! i will not be able to BLOG!!! i will of course MISS MSN and miss MSN and MISS MSN!!!
hais MSN!!!!!!!!
hooked liao everynite
can talk to frens.. lets me talk to old frens work frens all frens KEEPS OUT HOMEWORK KEEPS OUT BOREDOM!!!
everynite(almost) so nice.. pull my little table to my window on my tablet.. pray for a weak wireless signal.. start msn.. open windows media player listen to favourites and chat crunch peanuts.. look at the yellow glare of streetlamps just outside.. ideal.. zone out and dream about stuff.... ......
w/o msn.. all my music stored in this com... no more contacts... dunno how im gonna tahan the boredom
sigh
anyway the movie i finished is HOUSE OF WAX nice
i was rather scared this time.. suspense factor 9/10
chilly landscaping sinister character plots.. nice.. but wad i find scary i also found weird
u noe the wax figures? y they are so real? coz the ppl are actually waxed alive rite? so if ur waxed how can ur eyes still move? u cant breathe rite? how long can one survive after being waxed alive? like Wade.. the one at the grand piano in the show.. his eyes can still move.. scary
plus the old lady at the window..
her body can sill move..
i mean then when ur skin is waxed it becomes so brittle meh? like Wade's skin his fren touch and try to remove the wax then it just broke up like tau sar pia u noe? just crumbling away... also creepy taht scene.. plus the fact that the trudy sons used all sorts of primitive TOOLS to immobilise their victims first.. like pliers la spanner crossbow.. so BRUTAL!!!
other than those scary bits still mentally sane after it..
bloggin in da lib coz its raining dogs and cats...
shag.. no strength left.. mingbang is strong(but dun think he's runnin 5k) wen jing is strong.. yin hou is as strong.. jason is even stronger.. calvin is slightly less strong.. taurus dunno gonna field who.. must be ppl who are damn strong i am the least strong...
dunno how to run 9 may this yr can get top 8 very heng le.. but i wont be happy.. because i wont
calvin... mornin run 18 rounds.. just now do 6 rouinds.. TONIGHT gonna do some more MILES.. arrgggh
cmi
i run a bit already wanna die liao
i think i know what i'll do.. just train the minimal and hope for the best ba who cares...
actually i care a bit ego
dun wanna deprove fr las yr
damn depressed kinda sian dunno wadta do dunno where i last left my LAN cable.. think last time dunno bring where in the class use some1 else port then din take out..
anyone if u see an extra LAN cable its mine ok? thanks
dun think im goina study tonight also wan finish deuce bigalow disc 2 and half of disc 1 DAMN DISGUSTING LA comin from me... usu quite immune to these kinda things.. but wa lau.. see his face.. his lines.. damn irritated.. damn disgusted..
bball today intra class.. fun tto play wif everyone.. tho i damn emb 2dae i shhot so lan so off form dunno y must be nerves coz new playin ppl ma at least i redeemed myself with my last buzzer-beating shot.. haha like is said..
actually wasnt hopin to play bball anymore play so many times le SIAN but now.. hopin can play next wk.. again so i can show that my shootin isnt SO bad ok? roll ur eyes evveryone i dun care coz i cant see ya rite?
it really isnt ya def not as gd as al but not soo bad as 2dae too lar oman
who am i tryin to kid anyway rite? who cares .........................................................................................
just finished weddin crashers vcd God i love this show...
its so .. so parallel..
man.. no one will ever know how i feel...
i mean.. at the same time u know its never gonna happen?
being intentionally vague as usual
those who know me?.. yea.. i am like that.
back to the me everyone sees. 10/5 stars. the show won me over. music was perfect.. story was the usual true love forever type... but it was crafted so well.. every nuance in their expression.. claire.. john.. jeremy.. gloria..
ever since i did the MOE workplan seminar thingy last yr i knew that i was arts not science i mean ever since i learnt the piano i knew that.. but doin the seminar thing.. arrangin the music fitting the words visualising the whole setup to fit the sounds.. the impact.. the feel.. smoke.. mischief.. the earworm the twist the everything..
i want to be in the film/music industry someday some big corporation not to be an actor. statin the obvious rite? haha know i dun have wad it takes.. the looks.. the style.. the face.. the height the built
i dun mind bein BEHIND THE SCENES kinda guy i dun nid my stupid face on some tv i dun crave attn
i just love to see the whole picture in perfection.. the whole concept the masterpiece.. the story.. unfurling in tandem with the plot chaperoned by the appropriate music.. tender music tough music strong music cheesy music lame music romantic.. joyous uplifting sorrowful and bereaved..
music videos..
oh
i want to do them all. this tablet has enabled me to watch many music videos.. mostly chinese song ones.. a few jap and korean.. and i love more than a few..
some videos just make the song more meaningful.. some just kill the song..
i want to be a master of both.
coz i dont want my songs to be killed by some industry idiots who dont feel the same way i do.. coz they are too professional.. know wad i mean? go figure.. think slowly. too professional.
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im rambling
i talk too much sometimes.
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haha
yea i know
forget the show
its neva neva neva gonna happen yo!..
im just kiddin myself like john. am i? was he? nida slp.. missed runnin today.. and iswan was just tellin me about this guy who feels sore all ove trainin for the 5K
who cares man lose lose lar
whoever he is i dont care ur head has to be strong to command ur body to MOVE i can say for certain whoever this guy is? he wont win me
wad i mean is.. if i finish 15th he will come in LAST.
wont be botherin with galvanic or electrolysis tut for this wk. maybe ova the wkends i'll try doin it i need T.i.m.E.o.U.t. i am so tired stressed over nth i suppose.. havent even exams yet rite? yea so wad have i gotta be stressed about?
bio test.. aaaaahhhh D and i did study.. even though its VERY minimal HELL wad m i supposed ta DO?
judgin all ard i suppose everyone is DAMN affected by the TOLL of school the TOIL of tryin to catch up to PASS to make it lets all NOT give up ok? try to put aside all the disturbing thoughts for now.. thoughts of failure.. not makin it.. lettin down everyone.. the class.. passin o's and failin a's
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one word to everyone.. : perseverance(defn from dictionary.com, a legacy from our dear ex-ct) - Steady persistence in adhering to a course of action a belief or a purpose steadfastness
we can make it if we try there is still TIME ya we have the june holidays... our exams are in NOVEMBER lets work our way there steadily.. consistently doing our best even if we have a CRAZY teacher who allow himself to come in late just because he has the FLU what a sissy EFFEMINATE but doesnt allow us to go to the toilet even though HE ARRIVED LATER than (some) of us gives himself priveleges huh
wont waste my breath attackin him what every1 must remember is: never to give up. hang in there worry.. but dont OVER - WORRY there is still time to improve.
CHEERS
and keep trying.. every1 do their best for everything.. studies or COMPETITION keep at it...
something's wrong with blogger yesterdayt... slow.. incomplete loading..
wth.. mp3 PLAY button spoilt.. how to listen to music tonight?..
also dunthink i remember where's the warranty card...
FUCK LA
wad is happening? so much HW! now my small pleasure is taken from me...
my CCA!!!!! dun want tkd! why is it called a cca if we are not participating? really MISS you. of course here you refers to jamming ONLY. _________________________________________
now MR TAN'S LESSON!!! I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH HOW YOU RUN THE LESSON!!!
2 WORDS YOU USE INCESSANTLY: "THAT'S STRANGE..." OF COURSE THE LIST JUST GOES ONNN AND ON AND ON AND ON AND ONNNN!!!!!! NOT GONNA TRY TO THINK OF WAD YOU SAID YOU NINCOMPOOP!! MOST OF US JUST GOT OUR QN PAPER TODAY! AND WHO KNOWS Y HANDED UP PASSAGES TO THE CORRECT BOXES DONT RETURN TO THEIR OWNERS... U USE THEM AS TOILET PAPER RIGHT? I MEAN.. YOU DONT HAVE TO BE SHY IN ADMITTING THAT LA.. SOME PPL JUST NEED MORE RESISTANT MATERIALS TO CLEAN THEMSELF YA? and you think the indirect way with which you express urself is sooooooo cool.. " i seem to have two sticky notes written my desktop.. one is for tuesday.. one for thursday.. but it seems that none of u have attempted ur qnsssss!!!!" sux weirdo bad VIBESSSS eeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I AM IN A bad MOOD. STAY AWAY or ELSE... this is taking a toll on me... i can sense something in u... it hurts me.. of course u never had any idea to begin with.
actually it doesnt make sense rite?.. if im running for myself, y am i training? i mean.. unless there's a reason to y i need to run sooo fast.. and impress who?
dun feel like training using this reasoning... i have no one to let down ma...
thigh and hamstring pain like shit
plus last yr's right shin pain..its back.. feel like suing the tellytubby hill for causing the pain.. never had shin pains till we trained on the tellytubby hill 5 rounds...
had to go for some sort of trial for 400m.. in the end slack around a lot.. after run.. leona and her fren go off early.. left me and rasalas hse capt and bernice.. dunno spelling huiyin correct or wrong.. played bomberman w/her
met someone called kimberlyn.. also dunno spell correct or wrong she runnin 1500 i think nice to talk to.. her voice very soft quite fit tho
trainin hampered by rain huiyin suggested playin bball.. so we 3 plus en huo and masthan played bball.. masthan like to crap la.. say he unity sec star player.. dunno true anot.. but he play ok.. en huo good man.. got the STYLE factor like tyng cheong.. sth jasper and i dont have..
supported tennis ppl.. if im not mistaken we lost.. doubles and singles.. but the cheerleading guy(forgot his name) put up a super effort on his part.. *applause and salute* really respect him for that had a super POWER serve la ace after ace after ace.. wow...
cant forget the image in my mind now.. tho temasek had like so many noisy supporters.. basically apart from us no one cheered for the ij team... morale quite low.. but everyone like so sporting.. at the end ij cheer for ij tj cheered for ij..
huiyin ask me play bullet.. never even hear of bullet b4.. then i found out its sorta like free throw competition.. at first she scary.. chop and chop chop and chop and chop
i almost die.. i think left 3 lives.. then i comeback.. chop and chop and chop and chop and chop.. finally.. careless.. so the number of bullets rises.. one careless shot.. hit the backboard... gone.. lost to a girl bullet..
but whocares.. first time some more and she bball team.. haha
ran to cool down with kim and masthan rain started again stop runnin talkin in canteen.. noe sth new too... but shant say.. coz its not good to put rumours on blogs w/o person's permission.. whether its true or not.. haha
feel that the 2nd half of today changed the whole depressing math test math tutorial i-am-such-a-fool feeling..
sitting here now i realise how much time i need and how much time i've squandered yes squandered
suddenly remembered that word.. recall first knowing it when i read the fairytale " the flying trunk".. i think around before p1 damn long ago
i dont forget memories easily
now i have so much to make up for so much that i have to sacrifice just to make up for IT lost my heart for study but just cant lose it ....... lost so much brains slacking around..
i must propose this theory that regardless of whether u use brains or not brain cells still die.. so u might as well start using them.. i find i m so stupid after one yer of laziness. even i dont believe.. but i have to..
coz i cant deny it anymore.. just like i shouldnt deny it anymore. yea
so math is tmr
prediction from the master pundit : single digit.
*in desperation.. over studies and feeling hopeless over...
happy good friday! went see iswan cal and peng at mac doin cop they had free food too la on the house saw the MP is it khaw boon wan? din see clearly.. and not sure too.. but damn slack cop.. fun
went queensway today ..
buy SHOES!
brooks racer super lite la nice fit too..
orange and white.. looks very "virgin" if u know wad i mean.. haha
from $119 down to..
$79!!! wow not bad la i think cheaper than sports link or other places.. thanks to recommendation by the guys.. is jk peng cal haha actually din noe abt this place lol spent like 2.5 hrs choosin.. my shoe looks so white.. with orange trimmings.. couldnt decide at first.. coz got light green model.. but then that one whole shoe all green.. and since i had gren shoe b4.. and din have white shoe since pri school.. so chose orange one..
partly coz budget too ba haha
father sure gonna scold me for spendin so much when he not in buy shoes.. new mp3.. when he looks at my bank acc.. dun care la.. i need the shoes.. nva bought branded shoes till now lorx..
lets not be sad for too long "the connoiseurs" ..kiex? and everyone else too..
anyway im not good with words too
loook at my gp now
didnt even get into excell programme..
yeeaa..
joel sucks.
period.
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confidence at all time low. hahha as if i had confidence to begin with cant even look at some ppl in the eye.. always first to break the gaze... __________________________________
take care of ur ankle ar calvin.. i hate ankle injuries too an active person like me i guess no one like ankle injuries.. yeea take care ya for ur future...
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gonna slack can feel the depress mood coming on man im so not used to this man i cant get outta this mEsSs cant get outta this SHIIITTTT
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dunno when pw grp goin outta eat..
but only when cal is betta ya..
dun wan cal pay alone
wan share wif him bill
spendin $$$ makes me feel betta haha but not much to begin with anyway 6mths more goin find work le.. so shd be ok or else go NS then oso get paid so either way ok _________________________________
like to see you happy. smiling eyes haha.. u still dont know.. never will _________________________________
feel like crying now. portal has closed. i think also feel like laughing like crazy.
kinda reminds me of the spiderman cartoon series... i am so..... .... .
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decided to train for 5000m race figured that tho i would probably not be the last in if i do not train, that means if i train i will do better aim: finish top five. can le achievement for me.. coz i am s slacker. dun tink i can maintain regular trainings too.. but will try. i pledge to ... last chance to make my mark against tommy chen's army of warriors and bulls. i represent the lion. i am the renegade.
just realised that this is my 88th post.. lucky no right? hope tmr results can be equally good too.. and a lvls too.. and gp marks for everybody too.. kinda disappointed i din cut it for the EXCELL programme shows that my essays really suck more than i think they do.. i should just shut up.. i talk too much right? who listens, anyway?
what i would LOVE to own!!!! ROLAND AX7 49 key Hand-held Contro saw on super-band apparently the one of the CLICK-Five also use it ben-romans i think i want to perform with it too!! finally something to glorify the keyboard player!!!!!!
only costs 299 pounds ONLY right? yaya multiply that by 3.5 approx way outta my league apparently it seems a new creation only Roland seems to have it.. KORG YAMAHA all dont seem to have it but i WANT!!!!! can swing around like guitar feet apart knees bent low-slung pose..
DISTRACTED LIAO haiz i tink after NS then i can afford one.. BIO!!!! mr tan... sian dunno wads absolute wad wad wad... -----------------------------------------------------------------
ok my brother's out now got hooked up with dunno wad puffer dunno wad to open his alveola spaces scary like lungs collapse got lotsa medicine to take dunno y happen to him too haish ... remembering a song by the beatles: "life is very short, and there's no time..." true true live for the moment i guess live for the present in hope for the future live the best one can ever be always treasure friendships cherish those you care about let them know after all you never know when " tomorrow never comes..." another lyric line from another song.. "if tmr never comes...." pretty sentimental huh..
MOVE ON TO THE NEXT BLOG YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED LET ME ATTEMPT TO DEADPAN WHILE YOU DECIDE IF YOU WAT TO HEED MY ADVICE: I KNOW I DONT HAVE LOOKS OR ANYTHING NOT THE HUNK TYPE NOT THE INTELLECTUAL EITHER BUT WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ IS SERIOUS STUFF AND UNPLEASANT
FOR THOSE WHO HATE DEPRESSING ENTRIES: PLS MOVE ON ____________________________________________
HAHA
ENOUGH OF DEADPAN
ITS NOT EXACTLY MY MOOD NOW
SO LET ME STOP ____________________________________________
right finally my brother is in hospital have been waiting for him to go in for so long i mean he's been having phlegm day in day out for like so many days now.. its crazy and parents dont wan him checked up cause controlled by father he says no believes in chinese medicine ya right so everytime treat using herbs and what have you today: found out he has a serious LUNG INFECTION left lung chest pains whee-eezing cant breatheee gasping for breath when sleeping cant sleep last night so scary i was scared i admit fact no 1 abt me: when i admit anything you know im serious usually im rather quiet and mild.
so today afternoon sent him to hospital still awaitin x ray results mother went with him lookin after youngest bro at home sis at home too lucky father not in spore now or else sure kena stop cant go check up properly i mean this is kinda stupid la
it didnt strike him that sth is very wrong its like ongoing for more than a few months now CRAZY!!!
ITS CRAZY U KNOW????
let me state why
NONE OF US i repeat NONE OF US IN MY FAMILY the kids as in us HAVE EVER BEEN TO A WESTERN DOC B4
NO POLYCLINICS APART FROM BABY TAT TIME INJECTIONS NONE AFTER THAT
SICK? WHAT TO DO?
17 years back its : boil barley water add loquat jelly drink until u r ok
13 years ago: add lo han kuo and xia sang ju to boiling water drink till ok
7-9 years ago: wu hua cha lo han kuo xia sang ju some red colour pill i forgot the name or rest till u ok
recent years its: grass herbs bought by my father like ma huang ge gen etc i forgot many of the names
bluntly put it: none of these have much uses maybe psychologically or physically relieve the pain headache or fever a bit but most of the time its up to ur own trusty body to come up with its own battle lines battle armour tanks guns troops and bombs to deal with the virus or bacteria or sickness
i SWEAR no doctor in singapore has medical records of us 4kids maybe until today everything was done at home left to God mentality was: who ask you be so careless go get sick? father always say: i not sick your mother not sick u all can get sick it true my father has one of the best health ive ever seen 17 years of living i see him sick less than 2 times that should give you some idea how strong he is scold knn lj cjb kia for getting sick
CRAZY LA CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY
not over exaggerating in case anyone is rolling their eyes out there
not usu one to wash dirty linens in public but i feel that i have to write this as a reminder to ME NEVER TO BE LIKE THAT EVER to my kids next time to anyone i see on the street to anyone who needs attention help to alleviate suffering
AND ITS NOT $$$ issue either i may not have much $$$ compared to most ppl my age coz of my low allowance but my father has NO such probs he was a MUSICIAN!!! my dream! playing in clubs his band with aziz they all hyatt HOTELS all he play b4
piano teacher guitar teacher plays the flute accordian piano guitar violin pipe organ er hu harmonica PROFICIENTLY you wont believe it till u see it he has $$$ why doesnt he send his sick kids to a DOCTOR???? i am a christian the bible has always said to obey one's parents always respect them i have tried naturally i din succeed everytime and i dont know if its wrong to question but WHY DOES HE DO THAT? is it his belief in chinese medicine? or the body healing itself NATURALLY?
so from all these that ive been through i can tell you i respect the human body a lot created by the Lord God Almighty- perfect
let me tell you some things what it can do( what i can remember off the cuff now): - it can tahan 42degrees fever for more than 3 days, and bring it down slowly by the 4th full recovery by the 5th(no medication unless u count barley water) - a broken wrist with one bone sticking out takes 6 months to heal and close to a year for the owner to be able to CLENCH a fist again -a five year old alone can take PLENTY of DAMAGE ever play street fighter? yea similar to that kinda damage broken front teeth bleeding head bleeding back dislocated joints suffocation a nine year old child can survive 40 strokes of a bundle of 5 canes banded together and plenty more!!! click HERE for the full list ya and BEST OF ALL, ITS FREE!!! ITS FREE!!!! NO GIMMICKS NO FRILLS!! JUST THE PRODUCT IN ITS ENTIRETY YEA?
so now you all know why i can be bothered to run so fast or how come i dont train i still run so fast rite? CAUSE, i know for certain after all these things after all these years how TOUGH the body is the difference whether one SURVIVES OR DIES is OFTEN HOW STRONG YOUR MIND IS WHETHER YOU CAN CONTROL YOUR EMOTIONS OR LET YOUR EMOTIONS CONTROL YOU ADMIT TO URSELF THAT YOU ARE LOST AND YOU WILL DIE CLING ON TO EVERY BREATH YOUR HEART PUMPS AROUND YOUR SYSTEM AND YOU WILL LIKELY StAND A chAnCE HOWEVER SLIM FOR SURVIVAL
the body can be abused and live to tell the tale u can push it to its limits and thats what its done in sports like the 5000 m race for instance
feel bad citicising my parents like that sorry
bad impression now rite all of you who read this? im sorry
LOL this is the TIP of the iCEbErG mAN what sank the titanic and created probably the most well remembered lines a couple will ever say to each other...
hope my brother is ok it cant be too late
i admit: i am worried. -from the guy who has never seen a doctor in the past 15 years of my life for anything except since 2 years ago
quite a wasted day spent lotsa time just sittin down daydreamin.. actually not really.. coz i dun think i was thinkin of anythin at all. i think its called "stone" __________________________________
nothin much to say except afternoon go buy food at old work place happen to meet old work fren saw her deliverin shampoo.. chatted overheard workers discussin hair loss.. and how to deal with it apparently they say that yun nam and all those adverts dont work use sth else instead: costs only 9.80 i tink 1 bottle of amber liquid massage head with wine first not all types of wine.. got one hokkien word to describe.. temporarily forgot the word now but i know XO comes under that category.. then massage one capful of the amber liquid onto ur scalp. thats it so simple right? apparently it works.. at least thats wad we were talkin abt today them went to pinpoint the causes of hair loss.
might want to listen up:
this is said by the one that delivers PANTENE shampoo:
when u shampoo, dont let the shampoo come into contact with ur scalp for too long rinse ALL of thoroughly. CONDITIONING: conditioner shd also NOT contact scalp its only meant for the hair not the scalp cause its chemicals sometimes contact with scalp may cause hair to drop out. true or not? just thought id inform everyone.. let me noe if im wrong or its a wrong view presented by the PANTENE delivery person... hahahaha
went tiong bahru for last submission of scores for competition staff at kim seng cc really helpful and kind really appreciate their helpin me.. really goin the extra mile to help me.. tho its none of their business, ,,, i will learn from their example. i promise.
saw a very chio gerl haha i say very chio must believe.. u noe me normally i see chio or not chio oso i wont comment in front of anyone.. coz i more shy than peng is they all so when i actually say sth.. u noe tat i mean it.. hahaz
homeward bound saw innovian gal with putside bf at mrt din tink she attached u noe wad i mean.. saw in e reflection of the tunnel doors wanted to turn n see hu she is but resisted the urge in the end when i turn they were nowhere to be seen.. so couldnt confirm the class.. tho i can speculate from her reflection... anyway thats not at all important. ____________________________
train home so another innovian and another saw jes n her bf wah long time no see like.. got me thinkin that ns.. makes fat ppl thin.. does it make thin ppl thinner? no rite? accordin to po her skinner bro came out lookin better... more brawn.. hope same for me too.. i could use broader shoulders and a larger chest please. haa _____________________________________ peaceful mood now.. less stress now no more score to rush tho i couldn really be bothered to give them a full score.. (gave them slightly more than half only!) still cant unlock 4 more streetfighter characters... play on pc really hard.. coz diff button configs feel like slppin early tonite a lot of hw too sia sai eat shit la dun tink i'll be doin much too.. so HARD!!!
die my tablet got 1 virus 6 spyware liao too many songs download.. y are ppl so evil wanna attach virus to songs? now my tablet keep lagging hanging keys sometimes press to no avail... sian gonna play leaf green and street fighter. nite everyone
*i believe that: if its not meant for u, it will never be yours noe wad that means rite?~
cheer up k alvin? understand.. 12 + yrs is a long time..
smile again. =) _______________________________
rainy pe today to cal: ur so fit now compared to last yr man.. way to go! think u shd run e sports dy 5000m run with me support mi la ur 2.4 now fastest in class good chance.. think about it? _______________________________
i like ice-cream makes me be in a good mood gotta do my music scores for submission tmr tonight or risk disqualification. dun wan tat think ima kicked out of musicians club.. cuz of my results.. STUPID BLOCK TEST really disappointed.. and mr tan has NO sense.. leave me alone la i dun wan come ur TKD ! i rather give up TKD than musicians' club! i dun wan give up my chance to play music no no no
mr ng.. pls reconsider? mini-hartbreak for me.. but if u say NO then wadda i do rite? what CAN i do?
*learning to accept let go focus on something more important (yppah r u)
justv found out 2 days ago that they absolutely insist on competitors producing the scores for the songs and instrumentals submitted.. i have TILL FRIDAY!!!
DIE LA
so hard.. some more no software to help me.. actually din feel like doin.. wanted to tell the person to forgo me.. nvm.. but then.. but then.. i waste so much time on this and money oso.. tho like $40 not a lot maybe to some ppl but a lot to me so i will do it.. and coz especially the instrumental.. the 1st part was written for sth else.. but now cant really use that le.. that theme is what made me decide to do the score.. no matter how difficult or no time i have cuz it means sth to me so i will have to get the score down by friday latest.. or disqualified.. thats WORST
why am i plagued by deadlines all around?
dont tell me NO JAMMING LE TOO? i will be so disappointed.. thats like the only other thing that still keeps me interested in coming to ijc amidst the pile of trash i face: tutorials tests blablablablablablabla
lessons learnt #1: never be too confident #2: i can fail gp. #3: my gp sucks #4: i need to do something about my gp #5: there is not a STABLE subject that i have. #6: i have less than 7 months left to gao dim CHEM MATHS AND BIO. #7: and now i have GP. #8: gp is a threat to me #9: gp teachers are dangerous people #10: im a very very very very very very long way from an A in GP
how could this happen to me... maybe i deserve it. ya i think i do too confident too confident too confident
lower than soo many ppl.. its not being lower that gets to me.. just thought that i wrote it well. for the first time my feeling was wrong. a sign that i cant trust my feelings anymore cant trust my feelings anymore... no wonder... no wonder... no wonder...
chem mock spa: jasper told me that i did wrongly. that the units for the heat capacity is KJ/k so i din divide by temperature change
WHAT AM I DOING???????
i gotta start to wake up. two things to remember: #1: forget it- its not going to happen. long time dead. believe me #2:wake up. 7 months is not a long time for 4 subjects.
heart pain sia
the last time i really really heart pain over something i really value/treasure/like was like when? last year?
now my strongest subject since primary school has failed me. i am so doomed
napfa test was ok.. 28 points. dropped points as predicted: standing broad jump. got a C my legs are short and they're weak i guess. u can see that i dun walk much.. lazy to walk. bike a lot maybe thats Y. must be only developed my biking muscles. when will i ever get perfect 30 pts? in NS? oh ya CONGRATS TO ALVIN CHEO.. 30 PTS WOR IMPRESSIVE!!!
new personal best for 2.4: 10.02mins 1 sec after vic and my closest race finishing to him too. really admire vic for his running style and determination. he keeps telling me that i lack the WILL to PUSH. thats Y he's faster. he pushes. body mind and soul i guess thats right. or maybe he's just being humble
my napfa results will list now: bj: 230(max of ability) shuttle run: 9.9s pull-up: 11(min ") situp: 43 (conserve e) sit and reach: 59cm 2.4: 10.02m
best results ive ever seen din really train too.. pe muz do i down there slack slack thats the problem with me.. i could be better but i am ignorant complacent overconfident
i should change i guess
dunno whether to train for 5000m sports day so fast kena arrow maybe should ask CAL he sounds so seasoned trains daily some more COZ I DUN FEEL LIKE SPENDING MY FREE TIME RUNNING!!! i have NO MOOD TO TRAIN so UNLESS IM CONVINCED THAT TRAINING FOR THIS EVENT WILL GET ME A Medal, i will not train. just run lor that day who wanna win go win lor seems like RASALAS only has two CLASSES. vic is right. really. everytime got race only will see bernice and huiyin coming to find us RASALAS cant only have good runners in her class and our class rite? i mean u should hold a ENTIRE HOUSE MEETING or sth ARROW THOSE WHO ARE SUPER those who are fantaastic get them to run that way we wont see so many SAGGI and TAURUS dominating the track events MAH those who are truly good are NOT RUNNING! im like SOOOO average lor pls i mean.. nto complainin that i have to run i LOVE competition any form it exerts a kinda thrill in me excitement adrenaline the feelin of highness no other thought but the race its amazing but im just saying that for RASALAS to MOVE UP: take that TIP- HOUSE MEETING. get those truly gifter runners.
mdm lee was so childish today. i wonder Y really have to control myself from making a snide remark about her on my blog. _______________________________________________________
somethings that i would definitely redo if i can reverse time and be back in 2005 jan in ijc : join cross country as cca tommy chen tell me how many times le.. i din join. coz i see no fruit in being so fast now i have some regrets.. cuz i din think i would get arrowed for so many races: feel that i wasted the breath of those who cheered me during cross country and any other race. i mean.. ppl cheer for u u hui bao ma u get a good standing i merely got a mediocre placing:24 not join tkd mr tan is a poor manager. still join musicians' club music is my life and about everything dear to me is related to music
start study earlier dun slack so much dun bully bryan lim the rest.. pw all.. i tink no change. no complaints.
watched LAST SAMURAI today. i liked it at a loss of words as to how to describe it. its good. questioning: what is honour? is being patriotic in honour of urself or ur country? honour: follow one's HEART? or follow ORDERS to the hilt?
courage: where does it BEGIN? where does COURAGE turn into COWARDICE? left me thinking.
this ALGREN character.. he follows his heart. he does what he has to do. even though its against his orders. he learns compassion humility honour and courage.
complicated issues here. the one that quietly binds them all together is pehaps the geatest and the most tacky of them all: L.O.V.E.
went cycling today familiarising myself the route from woodlands to town alone unless you count my mp3 and my small green bike. miss my racer. but less than something else. i seem to be doing a lot of things alone do i mind? not really. do i feel lonely? not really. unless im thinking of somebody. SLOW cycling builds my stamina i find. thats why i think i run quite fast tho im not in sports cca and i never train. hope i can get 28 points for NAPFA this year. only willing to drop points in standing broad jump. must blame my short legs. actually planned to drop by padang for hollerback semis.. but then i think: i wearing shorts and t-shirt? and my bicycle? how to go in?
so i go back.. past paradiz.. peace centre.. thought i saw an old fren.. enter mac.. thought of stoppin.. but den saw weather not good. long journey home. felt really sian. this time felt bored. a bit lonely. always got mood to go no mood to come back. dunno y
reach home look at my transport in plants notes on the floor reminded that iswan already read it.. but i havent tho i agreed to read it same night as him. NO DISCIPLINE reminded of this quote i heard somewhere: " lAziness is A riCh mAn's diseAse."
heard it before? the thing is: im nowhere near rich. so its a generalisation most quotes are..anyway. thats also a generalisation. in fact in our lives whenever we need to get anything done or need to persuade someone to see our point of view or do something we often resort to generalisations. things are so PARADOXICAL
dont understand paradoxes? check the internet. dun feel like explaining. i covered paradoves in pri 4 class.. my teacher.. she was great.. her english lesson was never boring. not like mr TAN's.