im gonna pray very hard that my family situation stays at it is.. at least till the 11th june
i cant afford a reversal from goin to the finals.. coz i really put in effort this time round.. finally i have a chance of success.. what i always wanted.. to prove that i am good. of course not the best la but i want to get there. i will work hard.
gonna b very busy. wed gonna redo the records.. for my orchestra backing.. and all the aeroplanes.. haha.. still remember iswan? lol
gonna need to redo the ending..
yes and practise..
y? coz im performing LIVE!!
a requirement since this is the finals. all finalists have to perform LIVE. WOW
how cool is that
on a STEINWAY grand piano.. hahahaha
damn excited..
jus came back from the seminar for the finalists met a girl clarissa dunno vjc not.. but wearin vj pe shirt
pretty. din manage to talk long to her. too shy eye contact only thats it. anyway no time for this. results like fuck
so went to talk to others. and made new frens with studio producers etc.. damn cool heard how they do their stuff.. new to me.. so exciting. wait till i have money
top 6 means 50-50 chance of top 3 = 50-50 chance of cash prizes.. and i could use some money.
so homework and holidday tests on hold now. till 11 june.
gonna open invitation: anyone interested to come down on june 10 7-1030pm to support?
its themed "salute to Singapore " so u can expect songs to be about s'pore instrumental themes also at s'pore.. but mine is not gonna b boring i promise. mine quite creative in my own opinion. which may not apply to all but i think its nice.. judging from other students' comments.
romantic starting.
magical finish.
thats all i can say
of course if it sounds boring its ok la i dun mind goin alone.. coz this is not exactly a pop concert anyway.. its soo.. hail singapore u noe wad i mean? yea
jus let me noe..
asap
i muz bring minimum 10
thats the figure they say
gonna really PRAY that my family situation remains somewhat PEACEFUL.. i dun wanna miss the finals. no no no
some really good and powerful and talented entries.. but some really bu zhi liang li think they are geniuses la pls lor how many geniuses do we have in the 21 century? all died a long time ago.. poor 9 yr old girl ALso called grace.. tried to impress with such a simple piano arrangement.. no melody no tune haiz
i suspect her mom pushed her too hard.. her mom came to talk to me and edwin and dylan..
askin how we did the recordings..
so we told her.. use com.. midis hdd recorders.. xlr's male-female.. the stuff.
have a feeling she wants herdaughter to go thru all that
pls dun torture little kids.. u have hopes but u shd never IMPOSE it will DESTROY any love ur kid has for music and for u. with great possibility. its very real.. this feeling called " burnout"
talent and its development shd be as natural as possible.. and with God's blessings.
finals 10 june
before that some training course at NAFA
hope i can make it good man...
then at least i will have something to show for my effort.. not just some claims that i was a participant.. but knocked out in early etc.. substantiate my credibility. its important.
dun think gonna start study anytime soon.
bio tmr oso havent do the revision paper yet.
i want the prize money..
even third is good enough.
i am so poor.
*do u noe how i feel?the burden?what is happiness?
watched poseidon with vic and jas. not bad but a bit rushed the ending? dunno.. thats how i feel. not enough romance/love inside... so emotions pretty centred on stayin alive as individuals.. tho got the mother and child scene.. and the connor so chivalrous to go to the engine room to reverse the engines... but "tell me that u love me?".. i think he should just have told her and swim off.. that would mean sth more instead of askin her to tell him when he din say in the first place.
slack feeling is all in me..around me.. everywhere.. stupid nyaa... stupid hw i jus wan sleep. and sleep.
today i think i have received the answer to my long-drawn hope.
almost definitely. i cant be mistaken and dun think i am.
to end off i think that if ppl want to get married they should learn to accept each other good and bad if not break is better. no sense u noe? quarrel for 18 years? children can cry too u noe?
cant wait for X-men on friday with the guys... followed x-men since i could talk la and spiderman and his mary jane.. and DOUBLE-DRAGON(one of my fav fighting cartoons at that age) and BEAST- WARS(cgi series~computer graphics) of course transformers power rangers MASKED RIDER ultraman MACRON-1(one of my fav too)~abt these 3 ppl who have machines that combine to a huge one to combat evil..nice story batman..(loved it) fantastic four a lot more if i bother to think.. too many.. i small like to watch tv a lot. havent tell the disney cartoons also ... haha
today i realise the amount of work i have accumulated
compound interest...
like a loanshark homework comes hunting me
haunting my every step...
i turn my head at every echo behind me
fearful that it lurks behind...
awaiting my moment of weakness
then it should strike...
and i should fall
with a purple silence...
and a crimson gurgle
in the romantic dark night...
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a lot of things to do.. that i am still dodging.. will i still be like this during june? ..........................................................................
instrumental is what made it to the semi finals on the 27...
but timing not convenient leh..
depends..
hope can get top 6 to go finals. fat hope. im so not fat.
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weird new ode: enemy loves us i go. hint of a nova.
wasted my time in school.. orig wanted to read notes in sch then go home read tut
but then
TABLET came to me
and led me astray
ended up searchin for METAL SLUG 4(which i found but there is an error when i run it) and WORLD CUP SOCCER( seems to need a different platform to run which i almost dl but the uncle came in)
and rewatched the action scenes for HUO YAN JIA chinese martial arts amazes me
i like
i believe
tmr gettin Mi3 from cc.. thanks!! save my $7.. no $$$ le.. still must pay $2 a wk.. plus class photos... how come so EX ar 1 for $5? outside print 1 for 30cents and less lar..
there are thieves in ij? i dunno...
cant wait for the letter....
*still hoping gainst hope.. still waiting in vain.
I HAVE MADE IT PAST PRELIMINARY TO THE SEMI-FINALS for ARTQUEST 06 NATIONAL SONG-WRITING competition!!!
semis date: 27may SP audi 1pm
dunno its in the instrumental category or song category yet.. the person today only call say i made it.. they mailing the details to me... coz today is SUNDAY. cant wait..
hope my mail is NOT intercepted... as always..
my father DONT KNOW
basically its about writing a national day song/instrumental based on the theme: "salute to singapore" thats wad the competition is abt.. grand prize 5k wor even for student category!!!
thats where i am now
but dunno y i so excited also.. i might not even get to go to the semis lor.. iswan will probably noe y.
anyways.. id like to thank mr ng chee wee and mr ma for opening the jamming room for me to record my tracks.. thanks man.. =)
did my best.. glad that iswan ran.. coz some one pulled out.. injury i supp..
even though we all noe that TEAM 2 for every house is just to give us COMMONERS a taste of the action..
though his fear of losing and spoiling the outcome is somewhat misplaced coz like i said TEAM 2 is just a scheme by the Pe teachers to make it seem that ppl are INVOLVED..
no chance of medal success wadeva yea?
yeae and of course too of his reputation as a cute handsome hunky.... u noe the rest.. of course all said in jest by him.. so dont take it to heart..
he is just relieving some stress.. afraid he'll let the team down.. of course like i said.. team 2 is the team for NUMBERS..
funny how this entry goes in circles....
i ran 2nd.. so close to bridging that big gap btwn lane 2 runner(the 2nd slowest) and my lane 1 slot..
blame it on my fever.. i feel i gave it 90% effort.. which is good for a sick man
again thanks to all hu cheered.. thanxx... thanks...
fever on off for 2 days crazy races with blocked nose.. pouring rains..
medicine is not working.. sweating seems to help tho.. Pe.. then 400 m..
temp when i came home 2 hours ago was 37.8.. now its 38.5...
feel warm.. thank goodness no aircon at home.. i was really COOL in M1-5...
IEEE on sat.. biggest joke of our credibility i suppose.. ask the rest Y. i gave my best for sports.
no medal to show for 2 years of participation.
a little disappointed
last time i won a medal was in pri school interzonal 110 hurdles.
yea
Kheng Cheng Pri i was in athletics CCA on and off la slacker too
feel like goin go sun hot pon training go frens hse play sega.. haha still can recall..
p3 p4 at that time..
damn scared of heights.. and fren stay on 12 storey.. haha
sec school cca crap. jc one oso not meaingful enough
actually wad have i done that is of value ar..?
a lot of my actions are seemingly wased.. incomplete.. as a result of a complex of issues. heart...fear...shy...ttm...parents...
wth
i needa get well by sat
long day sat.. gonna need more than LUCK to convince the judges we actually carried out the expt.. we didnt.
fever's making me lightheaded..
i need to get well.
thanks ar iswan. and i think hse captains should be more sensitive.. but their job is equally demanding i suppose..
xs and ds... to all who are sick..
get well soon also.. take care... the S says i got to slp...
like i dun wanna run like that.. wad am i gonna do if it starts more than 5 mins early and im in class?
i feel so disappointed... rockbottom.. negative infinity.. u wont understand.. coz i prepared u understand? i sick yesterday also i ran the 5k.. coz i PREPARED this time ok?
i TRAINED!!!
though not as enthu as calvin.. but i trained on my own..
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anyway id like to thank everyone who cheered for me yesterday.. anyone i missed out.. no offence.. thx to cher zoe etc.. apppreciate it.. though i barely missed the top5 spot..
official position: 6th of 15 21mins14 sec
5th david cliff 4th yanzhi 3rd yinhou 2nd han yong 1st wen jin.. so as u can see from the people.. tough hard runners.. thats y i say im quite satisfied with my 6th position.. tho i think i should have beaten david cliff.. i trailed by only 2 metres and less..
haha fun day so far pccg... got one guy abc most prob from HPB came talk abt stree.. haha din think he's so old.. iswan was rite.. lol found out that im predominantly "S"... quite accurate overall actually.. tho i have a feelin thats not the full test
freezin in chem still got slight fever 37.8 sorethroat.. listless.. energy level low dunno if shd not run later my nose oso so rough.. breathe like painful leh.. all stucked.. ...
5000 later
dun wan get trashed thats y dun wan run.. so sway this time got train some.. then kena this fate.. FUCK all the flu viruses..
GAD(go and die)
anyway cal runnin for her and i runnin for myself right? so shd be ok ba right only me and my pride right?
PROJECT IEEE :bioluminescence damn boring so complicated sian
last yr iswan and i do the one on snails get joint 1st.. this yr so many innovians go..
20plus dun think can win le somemore we like not prepared.. "borrow here borrow there.." otherwise known as partial plagiarism another sin to my daily list of wrong-doings.. damn
left ard 2 is nida go celeb his sis bdae
haha
earlier walk whole of nPoint but jus couldnt find anythin for his sis under his budget.. then saw this name name creation.. sth like write one's name on some cute display thing.. i think less than 10.. but then no letter "N"
but thats like 1/3 his sis' name la so couldnt do that haha
must try galvanic tut today..
tmr gt test!!
dun wanna reenter chem remedial laa
father is playing the newly repaired piano now..
very nice..
sound is like~wow..
he's playing sergei Rachmaninov's PIANO CONCERTO NO.2
if anyone of you interested u shd go here it..
ya i noe tt its classical and stuff.. but i assure u.. it is NOT boring..
being a student of music myself.. i HATE boring pieces..
but there are very nice ones too..
for eg: ms lim wedding the entrance and finale(canon in D) and Wedding march are all classical pieces..
such music is everywhere so one shd nva be prejudiced against classical music.. its in films all too.. useful ma
anyway i have used the term "classical music" here incorrectly.. coz Rachminov comes under the LATE ROMANTIC-modern contemporary era
yea only MOZART BEETHOVEN come under classical era
but u all noe wad im tryin to say la
anyway as i m listening to this PIANO CONCERTO NO.2 of Rachmaninov's..
i think i can say i finally understand mood when he wrote this massive work.. mind you.. its over 45 pages long.. performance time ~40 mins 3 movements..fast slow fast
u can almost feel his LONELINESS when he was writing this work.. its pretty evident after u hear it several times.. no its not like those sappy modern love songs we hear today those sad kind..
its DISGUISED. his feelings of loneliness.. and i believe he is trying to drown himself in his technical mastery of the piano and the grandeur of his composition..
shd go listen u wont find it boring..
haha
and its very true too..
is easy to drown oneself in the sounds of the piano when u are down. down down
the piano is such a great instrument.... i never regret learning it at all...
i just have to say this.. on impulse. outsiders... caring... anxious... from a distance... praying for the best... limited... shu shou wu ce... choice... fork... always... u can blame me. but never take it out on urself. please...
i need help i have become a king slacker. i regret you know?
ever beginning to slack in the first place? i have NO time for EVERYTHING NOW except what i WANT to do...
damn sorry that bball and vball lost...
but wad can i do abt it?
its like u see them train so hard..
saw bball trainin.. wah run like siao lor
then still must play matches.. court trainin..
dunno they run can see the AGONY in all the bball players faces.. well not all la.. MOST
tryin so hard to meet the intervals timing..
not like.. "hai tired liao i slack a bit.."
peifu cheerup all school players.. not gonna comment anymore in case kena slammed for my lack of capacity to comment.. u noe..like: u nt sch player u still say so much huh..
anyway im going crazy..
so u shd IGNORE
bloggin now coz i dun understand electrolysis.. really this tablet has been a great distraction to me..
sometimes i feel so ashamed of where i am now in my studies but i dont know the way out I DONT KNOW THE WAY OUT CAN????
I DONT KNOW THE WAY OUT OF THIS MESSS I AM IN THIS A LEVEL MESSSSSS
yea bio lect: women are complicated.. but doesnt a little understanding make us all more human? _______________________________
can i get a router so i can increase my NEIGHBOUR's wireless signal?.. does it work that ay? can it? thinkin hate when blog entries are lost due to stupid wireless conversations cut off makes me look like a fool. makes me forget what id wanted to say like tonight so irritating. _______________________________
i want to sleep. i need to do something with my life. today, i just realised how pathetic i am. time: morning. zzz
CONGRATS TO INNOVA JC GUYS VOLLEYBALL TEAM!!!! won HCI today... proud of the team.. keep going! certainly an honour to be in nationals ya.. woW ..
proud that i haf a close fren hu is part of that successful team as well.. haha iswan.. jia you.. really well done!
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anyway today really happy as well.. PIANO IS RECONDED HAHAHA
tuned etcetc father finally got it tuned after like what 7 YEARS!!! now it sounds SOOOO GOOD
heart simply feels so glad when u play it now.. feels so solid.. sounds so grand i m so happy when i lay my hands on it and play and play and play and my ears are as happy and when my hands and ears are happy my heart is even more happy and then my whole person is happy.
to my father: thank you!!!! new lease of life for the piano new lease of life for joel new hope new dream
hmmm..
dunno PROM hotel got piano or not of course i want to play lar (for everybody of course) but if no piano how to play?
so i hope someone can tell the councillors to tell padman to INclude a piano please..
weird when i sign in to blogger after i enter my userid the instant i click to enter my password it appears on its own.. and no.. i didnt click on "remember me"
first time it happened
first formal guitar lesson (classical) want to be a proficient guitarist a really proficient one so im gonna practice my fingers off. dont u think its good to be good in piano AND guitar? hahaha -------------------------------------------------------- tired disappointed autumn leaves