mos with the guys thanks ar cher for the so many vcds.. i think its 9 plus iswan 8th mile and dead alive thanks iswan plus the pianist from libraria.. 12 moovies haha plus dvds.. nice.. thanks all..
gonna start asap haha sick of studyin.. think now is a better time to go sentosa than that day.. no exam liao.. hahaha
I AM FINDING IT INCREASINGLY DIFFICULT TO ONLINE NOW!!!! why i cant receive wireless???????
i dont online got th urge to online.. then cant do anything else but think of goin online.. HOOKED.... AAAAAAA...
today chem: think can paass..need only 45 marks rite? i completed 5 qns.. one in scribbles.. 3 blank. T.O.T.A.L.L.Y. 7 8 and 2 like.. wth ORGANIC SO HARD!!!
haiz.. but 5 qns shd be 50 marks rite? so minus 5 for some parts i din do.. haha and mistakes.. shd be can pass ba..
to those hu cldnt manage.. dun be too sad...
it was super hard in my opinion.. organic esp..killer..
tmr math? mr khoo gonna stand beside me AGAIN? like he did for paper 1? oh man.. i feel so bad.. he must feel real disappointed...
new odds.. dont play singapore poolss. play with me.. haha
math marks BELOW 25: $0.50 math mark below 35:$3.50 math mark above 50: $50
who wanna play?
i think bio this time a bit better.. shd be can pass..
but din finish part b and c of 1 essay qn.. but at least can complete 1 quite properly.. though i keep forgettin transcription and translation.. mix up... damn
and 2 ssructured blank.. as usual..the test cross qn.. plus the haem qn.. all of a sudden forgot the ans.. wad the hell....
tmr chem.. so far untouched.. but dun wanna fail that...
think shd be goin to the creative sale in jurong.. shd be buying some stuff.
internet is sucky again.
cant believe that im actually blogging now.. in the past whenever teacher ask us write diary i always never hand in .. coz very sian to write.. (primary school especially)
always end up playing soccer in the book.. u know by drawing 2 boxes at each end.. then markin 11 dots all over the place.. then u play by sliding a pen from one dot to the other:meant to be ur players.. best part was at the goal.. can defend the incoming shot by seeing if u can intersect ur friend's shot.. those were the days.. FUN
even tho so simple. no worries. even recalling hating my math teacher so much 3 of us boys gang up against her in p5.. when she go take new chalk.. we throw her handbag.. bang it.. pretend sneeze on it..
then kena the class goody-goody pang seh.. some more is a guy la.. guy tell on guy? i mean if its girl more reasonable ma.. coz girls at that age mentally more mature..like dun wan make fun of ppl.. so will side the teacher.. but this.. GUY?
then go see discipline master lor.. threaten call parents.. then i say my parents overseas.. so call also no use.. last ditch resort.. that nite go home.. trembling.. hoping he wont call.. jie guo didn call.. but principal next day threaten expel all of us...
wah then the other 2 put the blame on me.. FU no morals lor.. wan stick toether also cant stand together.. mei you yi qi anyway the VP a smart man.. could recognise their lies.. so didn punish me.. haha
talkin abt chalk anyway.. still remember the fun of chalk.. everytime sure volunteer go outside dust the duster into a metal-grilled wooden box to collect the chalk powder.. then the few of us would see who went home with the chalk-covered uniform.. LOL even tried on teacher once.. lucky it was april fools.. and she laughed with us..
so fun.. not like now.. exam and exam and exam and more notes to read.
no1 will believe.. but i shd be failing all 3 sub.. or maybe jus borderline one..
yesterday eatin mcspicy chicken at mac.. told iswan y chicken taste funny.. guo ran is funny.. mornin stomach ache like siao.. i think if those no abs also if kena that stomachache also can have a 30kg dumbell thrown on them also no effect.. then came the landslide...
woke up to go book seats in.. WRL how cheesy.. not say book seats go world cup or some concert.. hahahaha anyway asked is try to teach me some math.. so decided meet in lib to study..
anyway i din do much math.. only 3 chapt.. like.. got MILLIONS left.. coz i din haf mood do math.. MY BIO ONLY HALFWAY!!! is keep wantin to check see hu online.. dunno lookin for hu..haha jkjk
so introduced him to msn on handphone.. haha
+_+ feel like dying my brain.. went home 4 plus fell asleep immediately.. i think library env good for study tho.. must try for next exam.. coz no distractions.. thats a plus point. at home.. i got tablet. which means all my racing games and fighting games.. in lib i FREEZE
so no distraction.. somemore its so painful to study in the lib as its so cold.. my body fats percaentage i think must be less than 3%..haha
yea.. actually i can accept failing agin.. but jus WORRIED this time if FAIL will CALL PARENTS.. i dun wan tat to happen!!
jus came back made myself happy today went to malaysia to spend money bought shirt and some kinda bermuda? earphones.. and a lot more stuff..
almost bought camera.. coz like quite cheap.. 6 mpix like only 400Rm? ya
but then didnt coz remembered that i say i give half to my father. so i dun haf much money to spend if its to last till the end of this year.
look at my watch.. one week left for study. saw jasper blog. to jasper: i am also very worried.. but i dont know what to do.. and i am also DOOMED for prelim.. saw yawen blog: same same.. dunno if it was lady luck on my side or not.. like damn TAI KOU im like nowhere now.. like.. scoring the 7 points made me so lazy i guess. what the FUCK am i doin about it then!!! (saw cherling's blog..)
so .. yes im goin fail prelim 1. sorry to all the teachers.. i kinda get the feelin when i see u all teachin that u r tryin very hard.. but i am just not listening.. or making ANY effort.
maybe i will start today. bio.. tp be updated later.. very tired...
wanted to say a lot today.. but as i was just about to save the entry.. my wireless went off.
so just gonna say that i made new specs today.. changed my existin specs frame to purple.. coz it was broken in a futsal game with class guys..
and that i am quite happy to have wasted today as well. cant wait for my new specs..
oh went civic centre to buy guitar string.. saw idzhuan yizhen jessie.. many innovians seem to be studyin real hard at wrl man.. me? **take care of urself.
boring day. wanted to go out with work frens..then some cldnt make it.. anyway.. was thinkin.. maybe shd haf gone for class outin regardless of whether others are goin..
yea.. no reason to go.. but no reason NOT to go as well.. only makes ppl who are takin the pains to organise it feel bad. sm how like equivalent to "dont give a damn" attitude. sorry.
but the ONLY guy to go?
malaysia trip say that u hate me.. no hope for studies le. that might be the cure.
went out. (forgot take my hp..no wonder pocket so light.)
no mood study.
no mood at all.
came back..
saw inbox got 3 msgs and some missed calls.. turns out that jer kwei asked me go watch movie.. i think the rest of the guys too. weird. jer kwei--movie? at cinema? impossible.
anyway he said it was cancelled coz no1 could make it.
so i went back out again. riding around the neighbourhood. donated 20 cent to some flag day girl who had the nerve to stop me on my bicycle.
shd be goin msia soon.
studies no hope liao. as i said.. my heart is really nowhere to be found liao.. how can i put it in my studies?
anyway i am going to say the same thing again. so skip forward if u still want to read.
i wasted the WHOLE day today. mornin.. wake up take newspaper bring my brother cycling go online see yawen online start to crap very high saw yvonne online tried to crap but internet failed me again. so no choice. mother and father not home..so cooked 2 potatoes for lunch ate some luncheon meat ate an egg. felt sleepy went to sleep. potatoes din cook fully i guess.. stomach felt weird. fell asleep. same old habit.
woke at 3 drink water ryan ask me wan play bball.. i say ok.
he's movin away.. to kovan. likely that we wont be playin together for a very long time. kovan leh.
maybe nx wk b4 he moves gonna get the 4/6 of us to play a together match.. so long we 6 din play together liao now gonna lose my bball buddy to kovan. unless of course he willing to travel all the way here jus to play a game or too. unlikely
yea so hope to play one last time
so long din play liao 2 mths plus i realised napfa gold means nth.. siao cant even play half court w/o out of breath.
talked catch up realised sth in the process. my heart is no longer in my studies... my heart is everywhere else. where it shdnt be at this pt of time. suddenly i see the huge task b4 me. but wad m i gonna do abt it? will i do sth..or jus say or think about it only....
flash back a lot also so conducive la the sky and the wind.. the park i noe for 6 yrs liao plus so many thins happen there. doubt i will play there now after he move.. coz no one to play with. but maybe will still play. but with diff ppl. weird 7 yrs pass so fast.. since i came here end of p5..
gotta end here. jus feel the need to. hope enough guys are goin to sentosa. coz i feel like slacking. but i think maybe 5 only.. or less. if at all. to jasper:hope ur condition is not serious.. damn sudden sia..
dunno how gonna salvage my studies. *and i hope u always stay the same.. coz there's nth about u i wld change...
so yesterday was the competition.. and so the judge called the merits..and the 3rd prize.. nervewreckin.. we had to perform live u see.. i played a "STEINWAY D MODEL CONCERT GRAND" wow. nice man..
then the mc said.. so there's two left.. would both of u pls stand up? so noone stand up. she ask again.. say either sure 1st /second liao.. ask us stand.. so she stand 1st then i stand. then mc ask.. hu u think gonna b 1st? then ask audience.. wan announce 1st or 2nd first ne?
so audience say: second!!!
so she say.. second is...
student category: TAN CHUN SENG JOEL. 2nd prize. contestant no. IS-06. yea. so i lost to the VJ girl. anyway the prize money is 2k
decided to give half to my father.. after all he is much responsible for my abilities in music today. he was the one who taught me piano since 5. and now guitar. and believe me. when i get my guitar done.. all those overgate players like ian shao xian edwin wont come close. my father is a MUSICIAN. teaches piano guitar mainly.. in the past.
plays violin harmonica erhu flute/chinese flute pipe organ well plus plus la.
so he has given me this gift of music. God has blessed me. half is not unreasonable. anyway i dun need 2k at this time of my life.. now must STUDY!!!
end of year can go work ma
and write more songs.
made many frens.. take their contacts.. hope to work with them or learn more from them.. yesterday help one girl arrange a song she wrote.. so that now it sounds very much more emo and better.
haha im lookin at a music industry job.. but tats impossible in singapore. so thats y must study. damn less than 2 wks.. only read like 4 chpts of bio.. NOTHING ELSE STARTED YET!!!! DIE SIA
anyway...
sentosa on tue.. lookin forward to it..
winner of the student final in instrumental category was clarissa. stupid la. dun understand her abstract perf.. all SCALES LA.
and DANIEL j1 musicians club chair also got 2nd..hahaha
so 2 2nds for innova.. ahahaha RJ get merit only..hahaha serve them right.
LOLOLOLOLOLOL
so shiok laugh at them. pity the vj girl. but i dun wan laff at girls.
she win me some more sia
who cares...
first sentosa... then time to see what innova can do in studies too.
tmr comp day. finals. target:top 2 so that i can get some good money.
din study again. realise now like already left so few days.. maybe day after tmr will try get back on track.. spent today finalising all the equipment details..wad we are provided all.. rehearsal time all..
damn sian
dun think my sound tmr will be so good. combining rec with acoustic live is not a good idea the tech tell me. anyway..
scary morning rode my bike to school i think i was listenin to some song or wad.. din notice a car behind me.. it sideswiped me..
of course i fell tore some skin on my right palm an elbow.. and arm. lucky like tat only ar sia la dunno wad i was thinkin of also
then the canteen uncle from chinese stall was just comin out out of the side gate in his red car.. he wave at me.. i wave back.. and i jus got back on the bike only la.. with the blue car stopped ahead coz he had jus knocked me.. all in front of innova front gate.. no other witnesses. dunno wad i was thinkin.. still can wave back.. then i turned into the side gate and went to park my bike. leavin the blue car still there.. i think he drove off after a while. din bother go general office to see if anyone waitin or sth.
damn sian.
stupid sia
cant believe that happened.
must thank God that i din turn earlier.. if not kena full-frontal blow. then i probably wont be updatin this blog now. now i think back..
yesterday's post was a weird one.. and yesterday was a weird day too.. suddenly no one was "on" for the sentosa. weird i tot confirm on monday?
anyway so in no mood to study coz like already set my mood for today. to enjoy.. relax slack laugh talk joke
then nth happen
played hellotta guitar today.. fingertips pruned.
i still want to watch the omen. im curious.. the nerve to make a movie on the antichrist.. and screen it on 6/6/6 so many movies made on christianity exploiting the facts about the faith..
if its for some other religion.. say islam.. sure kena ban liao can u imagine a movie like the da vinci code uncoverin some secret this time not about jesus christ..but about prophet mohammed or some islamic faith? sure outrage liao.
so touchy today. better not talk anymore. kinda have this pent-up feelin inside. dunno cause by wad.
slack day couldnt be bothered to study went out with work fren.. he want buy new soccer ball.. rain or else would have played..
i think i must follow vic liao he min clock 6 hrs a day study i should follow.. good example. will benefit me also anyway.. must make an effort soon
interesting day yesterday.. guys went for bio lect.. like 20%of total cohort showed up.. azahar was like pleasantly amused. said he wouldnt waste our time... for once after lunch at cwp kfc managed to stay awake in bio prob coz it was so stuffy.. and kept talkin to cal abt his race
funny thing happened eric wong called said p vp and he got letter informin that 2 innovians are in the finals of that national song/instrumental competition.. so they may be goin to see.. but he made a bad move of callin my home.. which made my parents think i was not in school. if not y cant he contact me? idiot sia
anyway not sure if goin for the finals too but hope can hope.
sentosa tmr hope we have hot sun strong breeze azure skies streaked with white and dazzling waters to swim/kayak in sounds enjoyable.
im such a waster of time... can believe time is pang sehing me. it seems like.. not gonna fight for what i cannot get.. not gonna try anymore.. i dun wanna be the cause of anyone's pain. least of all yours.
actually.. it shd be no surprise that logan likes jean.. jus watched x men.. he hinted pretty clearly.
anyway.. startin to feel like harry potter.. my scar hurts.. (from the futsal game..) right across my eyebrow.. wish it was longer tho.. then can look like some anime character..
had chem remedial today realised how much i dont know.. will have to work on it
soon...
anyway..
played strt soccer with the guys.. some stupid oponent zam the ball into my face.. glasses broke..
fuckin stupid.. need to make new frame.. ex la u bastard..
ppl poor ok?
.......
anyway came to thinkin.. what if.. i mean.. like what if i had not played soccer.. would i still have my intact glasses? shd be yes rite?
then like.. what if i had said hi to u.. we would have gotten to know each other..be frens rite.. then.. what if i had told u sth that i wanted to tell u instead of holdin back..
point: time is like a web.. so many branches,.. so many uncertainties.. so many regrets...