I confirmed a lil more abt myself ytd: I hate to fail. Especially when i could have prevented it, but for a temporary lapse in concentration. And since e tester is my sworn enemy. I'm hard on myself when i'm serious. Maybe even hard on others. But when its over i'm just super slack. Standards dont matter anymore. Can jus sit down and stone e day away. So i cant decide what i am. A perfectionist? Or a slacker. I think i just hate to lose. And i just push myself really hard. So i can understand sometimes if ppl dun like e way they're being pushed. Like in e band last time.
Fucked up la. Duno where i am. Duno what u are. Duno how they are. Duno duno duno.
Talking to three of my friends made me realise that i've got to do something with my life, that i've been too stagnant for too long. That it's time i made use of my time in a better way. So i'll start thinking of what i could do. Priority is my class 3driving license before my birthday next year. No point spending time that yields no fruit. And i love my bike. Love riding and e speed it gives me. Gonna do it up and make it better slowly. I like to spend my time fixing things to make them better. So since i really like my bike, i'll try to learn wad i can do to make it even nicer to ride. And perform better.:) cant wait to get a bigger bike next sept.
Oh. Hope i pass my driving assessment tmr. Then i can stay out. That's wad i heard.
After talking to some of my coursemates, i realised tat guys are really stupid creatures. And they choose to walk this stupid path, knowing it will fail. Let me elaborate: talking to some of e guys in my course, i found out some were christians. So naturally i inquired how they became christians, and e church they attend. So a variable lot of answers turned out.. From ncc to city harvest etc. But e thing they had in common was how they got to church- because they followed a girl to church. Asking further they'll admit they like e girl. Then making a prediction, I'll venture that the girl NOW has a bf. But did not when they 1st knew her. They all followed e girl to church and became christians cos they liked her. Tho some have since backslided cos they lost her, there are others who did not. In sum, guys can become christians cos they like someone, go to church with her. But ultimately still have to face e fact that she will or might not be theirs. But by then they have already been 'lured'. And ask some if they regret. I'll leave tat to ur extrapolative thinking. Guys guys guys. Y so fallible? Haiyo. Ha.
~I must be e greatest fool in this world.. But never mind. I chose to be. Just to see you, I'll be happy to be the fool.. cos that place inside will always be for you.~
baptised today.. hmmm... all e best for ur paper! Dun worry abt e outcome. Just do ur best can le.
may God bless and help you.
--------------------------- tnaci. tiodotesohcisoc. Cos i know i cant face it when i know i could have at least tried to help but chose not to. ..rettamllitsusoc ~ I'm dead tired now.
lost and all alone I always thought that i could make it on my own Since you left i hardly make it through the day My tears get in e way And i want you here to stay
I wander thru e night And search e world to find e words to make it right All i want is just e way it used to be, with you here close to me, i've got to make you see
That i'm lost without your love Life without you isn't worth e trouble of I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel A touch without a feel I cant believe it's real
And someday soon i'll wake, and find my heart wont have to break
Yes i'm lost without your love Life without you isn't worth e trouble of All i want is just e way it used to be I need you here with me Oh darlin cant you see If we had love before We can have it back once more..
Been listening to a band called x-japan. Heard of it? It seems to be quite popular but i nva heard of it till recently. Well, i jus want to recommend a song. It's called endless rain, bx x- japan. Its good. Go check it out if u have e time..
Went heart.sports after bookout on sat.. Biked there for e 1st time. And now i'm eating dinner at home. Nice. Appreciate meals at home ever since i joined e army. Cos i really cant work up an appetite to eat there. It all tastes wrong. Really.
and Brought a fren to church today..
well since i dont feel like being intentionally vague and long winded, i shall end my post here, with a thought.
they always say: home is where e heart is.. But are u sure? I'm not. Definitely not. Ha.. well since i dont feel like being intentionally vague and long winded, i shall end my post here, with a thought.
they always say: home is where e heart is.. But are u sure? I'm not. Definitely not. Ha..
Haiz. I really think i miss _ o_ _y. Booking in now is so sian. And i'm supposed to enjoy book-in? Nvm. Looking forward to 3days time. Cos i book out again. Haha.. Lucky for this midweek holiday. I really hue staying in. I miss everybody.
Cabbing to camp now. Cos i'm late. Been cabbing out of camp ever since my course started.. Cos they dun allow trainees to ride to camp. SIAN. Fucking long to go home u noe from khb there.. East side to north not funny. Fuck. 7weeks more.
So today fren jioed me go malaysia. But i was riding so din answer. By e time i called him he'd already returned. Talk abt brother. Haha. Well at least he helped me get 2t for my bike. Anyway i couldn't go cos i met nicole to help her with her english..and then met elysee..had macs. And we got cass something for her birthday.. And did it in a very sneaky and unconventional way. Lol. And then vic asked me to play pool. So i went, sort of "abandoning" them in e process.. Sorry ar.. And then went home.. And nba'd till 9. And now cab to camp. Real waste of money i know.. But lately, i feel v sian booking in cos i have to stay in. Sad. And i wish.... 3more days. wish tat they would come and end quickly.. Among other things.. Tahan tahan.. Regular must tahan.. And.. Yasu opsi ruli doom:( Shit. I duno how to tahan 4more years.