~just 5 thoughts lately~
1) until i saw the advertisement, i could not find a word
to describe how somebody lookED.
now i can, it's: exotic.
2) bangladeshis really care a lot for each other.
u see them ferrying another to work on ONE BIKE.
after i saw that, i started thinking how selfish singaporeans are.
3) i dunno if sony is selling its PSP's well or not..but i happened
to see a girl playing a PSP on a train last week..
and i liked what i saw.
i mean: if PSP is not selling well, thats the way to advetrtise.
no need supermodel looks..girl-next-door can le..nice painted nails..tote..nice slippers..skirt(no denim) plus only slightly oversized shirt. long hair is a must. and xbox will be knocked out flat.
point: girls look good playing psps.. havent seen a guy that looks good doin that yet..
4)im very tired. as in sleepy tired. havent been sleeping well lately.but at least no more bad dreams after that one.
5) i am a fool. AM.

had a bad dream last night..
it was really a nightmare.

really.

except for one small part of it that will never happen
in real life.
im sure of that,
because someone else is sure of that too.

Maserati... Lamborghini diablo.
my dream brand of cars..models subject to availability. brands will never change cos they are really the most cleanly cut cars ive ever seen.

erm
christmas was ok..
but mainly spent xmas day itself at home..
sleeping..
cos nothing was planned..
and i started reading again.
novels.
ya
finished 2 books in 2 days..
but a bit thin..so i wasnt as fast as i was last time.
who cares..
im not gonna be studyin for 2 years..haha

thanks everyone for the wishes.
hope everyone enjoyed their xmas..
now im at work..
and its quite cold..
cos its raining like siao again.
and im a bit wet.
and in aircon.

hmm
& finally there seems to be a unanimous decision that this blogskin of mine is nice.
LOL.

MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE!!!!!
God bless u all.

http://www.ndp.org.sg/songs.php
anyone interested?
finally i see an opening for the public to try...
hmmm...

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i got a surprise yesterday..
open my letter box, and saw i got EAGLES award!!
tho only $150 its still gd enough..
my 1st time in 12 yrs of school that i get EAGLES award la
last time all i get is bursary/scholarship
then in jc din get at all..
cos results like crap

woo..
but im really happy to get this..
means my cca etc got notable achievement ba..
haha
thank you whoever decided that i should get this award..
and to God too..
one of the few things i can be proud of in my life.
cos i nva really achieve much...
and im not much also as a person.

gonna use the money to record one song for the above url..
if i have the idea.
*sometimes i think ppl think i make a fool of myself..by what i do..

~~
sometimes in life you walk
through those who walk the talk
the talk you know u're not
because you walk your walk.

some ppl are to be loved
and loved they're meant to be missed
coz missed is how u'll know
that they're the ones you've loved.

though some loved are to be lost
through optimism lost it denies them
for them missed they wont know
the know of them you've lost

thus friends are one cherish
to cherish and built upon
upon the years in remembering
pictures remembering the mind quietly cherish
~~

ive realised what kind of therapy i need.
need to revamp all my songs in my phone..
cut down on love songs..
put in more hiphop rap and metal?
u2
outkast esp
jus realised i have a growing liking for dance music..


...

1 thing i like abt kpool is that their music is great
they have real great taste
a lot of chinese songs they play there i like
but i dunno the title..
maybe next time i can work there?
so i can listen to my heart's delight.
haha

what heart's delight...
(ateen dis..one weak ass)

nowadays since im workin weekdays..
i find myself cramming all my enjoyment into the weekends..

~saturday~
was to meet vic and iswan for gym at 930
instead, woke up to discover that my 2 bicycle pedals were GONE, gone, GONE, gone, GONE...

real nice surprise..
so i had to tell vic and is that i'll be 25 mins
late.
then went hunting in the concrete jungle with my adjustable wrench and my hunting slippers.

a while later i got the job done, except now my bike has black pedals instead of silver aluminium ones.
not that i care..
afterall its not a showy bike to begin with..
but the idiot hu took my pedals made me get my hands dirty..something that has not happened for a long time.

gymed with is and vic..
i think gym go with a few frens quite nice..
but da place was jsu too crowded..
dunno y suddenly soooo many ppl trying to become rambo.
me?
if i can, i jus wana be like vincent ng..
i hope not too far off la..
lol
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slept
went to frens hse slack
pass by dhoby
saw blood donation drive..
massive
reminded of the collection at admiralty cc sun..
hmm
think i shd be going..
went to buy my pair of roller blades..
so i can practise..
haha
my bro so pro liao
i also wan "train"
haha

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RAAAAINY day
haha
talkin abt rain
iswan drew to my atn that Rain only has 4-pack
not 6
LOL
i always tot he had 6..
oh well
haha

going to pool later..
then going to see my grandparents i think
seems like there is some kind of mending of the relations..
i like it when ppl can understand each other again.
haiz..
but must wait till like that meh...

to be updated soon...

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someone said that the person you marry is not the one you love most
and the one you love most may not be the one you will end up with
its only love lost that we will treasure

~

words of wisdom.
i need to start writing songs again.
whether i can or cant.
have to find a way to overcome this apparent lack of creativity im facing.
i dont believe i only did it because of certain situations i was experiencing..
i want to be able to do it so that i can do it like im writing a composition..an essay..
get it?
so if anyone says," yo..jo..can u write ME a song?"
i'll say," yea sure..
how would u like it?
happy?
sad?
bittersweet?
tender?
romantic?
will u be happy if the intro goes like this?the ending leh?"
or,
" jo, im really sad now..can u write me a song so i can get over someone?"
then i'll say," yea..sure..tell me ur story..."
then i'll get the song done.
if its a fren maybe i can jus give the song away..
i dun mind..
if i can trust that fren la
later he/she use it for own profit then no use liao lor
the EXCLUSIVITY is not there..
of course i retain rights to the song since i wrote it..
but it will be DEDICATED to that person only

hahaz..
im just dreaming la..
let me dream a bit more..
i want to follow my passion..
i want a big break..a once in a lifetime opportunity..a showcase..
will i get it?

will i become a singer/songwriter/mega producer?
a sought after songwriter like jay?
bigger than him?
jus surfed web today to see how many songs he wrote for other ppl..
wow
impressed.
but im gonna be better..
im gonna try.
im gonna start.
today.
and hope my big break comes.

cant i have a career like this in SINGAPORE????

initially the feeling was a kind of relief..that it was not taken to be negative or anything..but slowly, i felt the metamorphosis that brought upon the deepest feelings that began to wear through much like how a river might run its banks..much like how golddiggers pan for gold..slowly..inevitably..
and i was overcome with $@*&*$$
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fren was sick..
so pool was cancelled..
happy feet was cancelled.
i was sick on prom.
y are so many ppl sick?
so morning was boring

late afternoon
went to lee wei song open house.
lee wei shiong himself sang for us
and the 7 or so "lao shi" including him performed their school song for those hu attended the open house
its a little cute for a sch song..
but its miles betta than wad dick lee has written for our sch.
no bias.
i cant even understand dick's melody..for a sch song?
i believe i can do a betta job.
but
i shouldnt brag.
ive got nothing to brag about.
haiz

i need money to enrol
so im gonna work til i have enough money
then im gonna enrol.
then im gonna work hard.
then im gonna be the next jay chou.
the next stephanie sun.
but i dun fancy her coz she dun write her own songs, she only sings.

im goin to.

no mood to write more abt how the sch is run.
want to find out?
next time can go open hse next yr.
or surf their webbie.
im losing time..some ppl are just so lucky..
my limiting reagent is $$$.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not,
'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't,
'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Would you get them if i did?
No you won't,
'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
~ john mayer- dreaming with a broken heart.

my memory...

some thoughts:

will miss my class 05s21..
nice prom
everyone had nice outfits
but the ballroom smaller than i expected..
cos maybe i envisioned prom in a diff way ba..
but it was ok..
maybe it could have happened better if it was held differently..
not elaborating.

really will miss everyone.
every-one.

get it?
dun think so.

more thoughts:
( from the 2 years)
best code: word is that ailments plague the night

favourite pe lesson: softball

album that made most impact on me: outside castle

song that i'll always remember: song for lady

favourite movie: perhaps love
(esp the part when he type(i think-cant remember clearly) woaini in chinese repeatedly on his com..cos can identify with the feeling)


fav english movie: step up

notable movies: death note.(cant wait for no.2)

fav vcd i watched: 7 swordsmen of the mountain tian, pirates of carribean1

vcd i was scared of: dolls( i can handle ghosts, spirits demons etc.. dolls?scary.)

events i will never forget: OAC, pw

feelings i never want to experience again: a levels, pw results
(to be continued when i have more time)
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others:
ppl id like to meet in my lifetime:
(especially) jay chou
red hot chilli peppers
eminem
avril lavigne
she
david tao maybe
wang lee hom
jay-z
(especially) linkin park
maybe stephanie sun but she dun write her own songs
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i think i may have missed out a few others..
haha
but id like to meet them in person, shake hands and all..
haha
lunch or tea..wadeva
cos i like them a lot
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get back sm time..
*i gotta learn to forget