i cant sleep. and i chanced upon this song. and happened to like it immediately... so here it is..
~ i believe in you~ il divo and celine dion Lonely The path you have chosen A restless road No turning back One day you Will find you light again Don't you know Don't let go Be strong
Follow you heart Let you love lead through the darkness Back to a place you once knew I believe, I believe, I believe In you
Follow your dreams Be yourself, an angel of kindness There's nothing that you can not do I believe, I believe, I believe In you.
Tout seul Tu t'en iras tout seul Coeur ouvert A L'univers Poursuis ta quete Sans regarder derriere N'attends pas Que le jour Se leve
Suis ton etoile Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte Un jour tu le toucheras Si tu croix si tu croix si tu croix En toi Suis la lumiere N'eneins pas la flamme que tu portes Au fonds de toi souviens-toi Que je croix que je croix que je croix Que je croix En toi
Someday I'll find you Someday you'll find me to And when I hold you close I'll know that is true
Follow your heart Let you love lead through the darkness Back to a place you once knew I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams Be yourself, an angel of kindness There's nothing that you can not do I believe, I believe, I believe In you.
There will always be a place in my heart In my heart No matter what I do There will always be a place in my heart In my heart, there's a place for you
The roads that we travel Some of them near And some of them so far
We each go our own way I cling to the past While you reach for the stars
There will always be a place in my heart In my heart No matter what I do There will always be a place in my heart In my heart, there's a place for you
Remember the old days Remember the crazy ways we used to be We were outcasts in the shadows Me reaching for you You reaching for me
There will always be a place in my arms In my arms And you know it's true There will always be a place in my heart In my heart, there's a place for you
Remember winter, it made you cry Remember summer, that lullaby I will remember In the days to come You standing in the wilderness Laughing in the sun
So wherever you may wander Wherever your restless heart decides to go No matter the distance Wherever you are I want you to know
There will always be a place in my heart In my heart No matter what you do There will always be a place in my heart In my heart, there's a place for you
i've found a new "staple". ice-cream. on my way home today i saw 2 yubs of kings icecream for 5.95 and bought them.. now ate 1/3 of it alr. haha
now gonna sleep... well, hope fri goes well.. cos it'll be almost a full band performance now=) and hope i can have more motivation to sit down to rec the songs. the deadline's coming. and i think i shd stop self-censoring my ideas for now. i've not much left after it all. and...
i'm playing again this colour fri. today someone asked me a peculiar qn: so ur ranking in the band is higher than xxxxxx? since ur 1st and she's 2nd?
hell what kind of qn is that? let me quickly make my mind clear to all- i never once think that i'm better than another, musically speaking. though i try to play differently. i think it's evident already- i have my own versions for nothing but the blood, and history maker, among other individual bits of arrangement i 'd like to put into other songs. cos i believe that the listener's shd get some variation from different performers. what's the point in everyone doing the same thing? it'd be a dull world if everyone painted red the same shade. i dont assert to be better than another musically. nowadays i realise it's not really how good you are. and anyway i've really fallen so much in terms of skill that only i know. but well, i hope to pick it back up in a few years time, when i do leave the army. it's actually how u use what u know how to that makes a difference. knowing but not using is a huge waste of resource. and no. i dont decide to be 1st kb. and i'm sure there's no such thing as ranking in the band. why cant everyone just be good friends with each other? why have such political undertones in that question? to trap me? cos see, i've grown very tired of strife. my parents married to hurt each other, it seems. i cant take it anymore. i'm really waiting for the day the happy ending is mine. where the crashing down of hollow years is all i can hear. where i can leave the burden and the aches buried forever. where i can be true to the ppl i care abt, true to everyone i know, without them seeing if there's something un-christian abt it they can exploit. when i can stop being a hypochrite. cos so many ppl are without realising it. yet their self-righteousness is still so forthcoming cant place it. but it starts with me. my walk with God starts with me.
today, my "home studio" is complete! after some setbacks especially a $2000 scam online which i have no hope of getting back. and a lot of savings spent, my setup works! hahaha i spent roughly 4k on everything minus the scam. yamaha synth, com, reference speakers, cables,a strong and large table, and a mike. speakers and mike came today. maybe i'll take a picture of everything when i can find a camera. haha
well means i gotta use it alot so i can fully make use of the money i spent.
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took off ytd to send my father to airport. then damn sian. cos i woke up with a fever in the morning. so went polyclinic got 2 days mc. still feel feverish lei... but tmr must go back camp. then i got a call saying that i gotta go for this east coast trial run of 5k tmr.. for army half marathon competitive team. hais sick how to run. oh ya. and we got third last friday in the saf sports day relay run. hahaha (i was in the team) good experience running 400m so competitively. -------------------------------
and i guess i am an internet addict la. how? haha ------------------------------- the cough medicine and antibiotics are making my mind float away from my hands. i dont really feel them. and the thoughts kinda dont sync themselves into nice sentences. so i apologize for the poor sentence construction and grammer.
Today's saturday. Had a nice good fri ytd which comprised of gg for service, then having rzone rawks prac..then meeting l b st a and mh for buffet. Buffet time was enjoyable but the food wasn't. Too bad i suppose, cos humans have always been the type to base their present experience on their past in any comparison.. But anw the company was great:) Then wanted to go get my soundcard but the shop was closed. Maybe today or tmr i'll go get it.. Then went to ps get vic's bicycle, saw alex drums, and trained home.
To end, i'll just document some thoughts i had when i woke up. Actually the latter part of my sleep was actually half-sleep. As in i was in and out of dreamland, and i dreamt last night! (Normally i dont). And in order of happening- 1) i wish i had msged someone before i slept. Sigh. Cos concerned ma. Anyway. I was too tired so. Sorry. 2)i dreamt, and woke up with a song. But what i remember now is only one line-.- the rest is still in that half-sleep subconscious i described.nvm. When i have time i'll work on it. I dont think i have though. 3)well i jus wished that i'd just said hi. But that's just me. I have eye contact problems. 4)some ppl's eye's are amazing:) its a blatant enough confession for my standards. I'm a very private person.
Anyway these are just random thoughts. Dont read into them unless u want to.
Wow. Lots of food and some beer last night made me very tired today. Head heavy, legs, back and neck stiff. Basically ur brain feels tired. And being a teetotaller for 3 months plus doesn't help with ur tolerance level. Tho it didn't drop much and i only drank 3 cans. I think if u want to take alcohol and not feel the effects u need to first eat a lot. Then really, there's not much feeling to it than on an empty stomach.
Basically i'm here to update stuff, but in the usual random and vague way.
One. I like this song four to the floor. It just sticks to me. Two. I think i have a problem with c. Contra to my initial proclamation. Three. Close the door is a new song idea i need to develop. Oh man. It was the saddest days of my life. Lol. I nva thought i could pun. Four. I am really really stressed. Rzone rawks songs are 8 and that's rly a lot cos i'm only familiar with like 3. And key transpos are nva easy on anyone. Five. I need a break. To sort out my life. It's getting out of hand. I need guidance too. I am becoming so good at ignoring and running away, putting off and procrastination.