outing with the jc claz..watched a very nice cartoon movie~surf's up with iswan and jasper. then met vic jerkwei peng plus yvonne and yawen for nice dinner at nice village at the heeren
yea. nice to meet up real nice. ---------------
i realise i dunno a lot about myself still. im not sure wad i want with my life. im not sure if i made a mistake. but i guess i didnt have a choice. but i guess its still a reasonable gamble.
i duno if some ppl think it i stupid. i guess some do. but then again.. im quite a stupid person. still. -------------- its different now.not too much. but its alot easier now.
played st soc at jom ytd.. nice cos its like so long since we played. couldnt breathe half the time. still sick. --------------- chilled with chris and vic at peninsula..where chris found a fly in his indian potatoes. yuck it was a BIG one zniwae peninsula food ex and so not good. yea then went coffee bean and golf shop in suntec to get some stuff for shaun dad.
went home.. finished the passion of the christ..slept at 3. and felt sicker. --------------- played pool with jian wen also in a long time. haha hope to play once more before posting. ---------------
when you clear a mine, you have to be very careful toeing the line. never cross the arcs you clear. cos a split second later you could be in heaven crying or in hell holding on
sometimes i wonder what kind of a person i am what kind of a person im supposed to be. what kind of person i should be. what kind of a person i really am what kind of a person i am now what kind of a person i would be in the future what kind of future i would like. i think im the biggest risk taker in the world. but im also the most cowardly person in the world. i think that im a realist. but sometimes realism toes that line with idealism and perfectionism. realism also toes the line to pessimism. sometimes i feel strong. sometimes i feel weak but i act strong. if im sad i'll act happy. if im angry i'll act normal. if im afraid i'll act like its nothing. if im happy i'll act normal. when i miss sth i act like its ok. when im scared i act like i know whats next.
im toeing the line again. i dun wana lose it again. i dun wana be blown to bits. its not a fucking blow(n)-job
we're very far off if we are gona win create. i duno the skill level is jus not there for the keyboardists. but practice makes perfect la. and here's still time.
ok ive decided. my life's not gona be so straight and simple as everyone else's. but im gona do ad decide wad i want. not gona bag on my knees. not gona depend on ani1 i dun nid grudging help i dun nid hurt noise fucked up shit ppl in my life anymore yay.