Scouting for possibilities in recording equipment. Cheapest i would need abt 4k plus. Need to save really if i want to put that at home. And basically also rotted wed thur and fri away, trying not to feel anything. But it's impossible, as usual. Because life is full of paradoxes.
i'm feeling so awake right now. And i dont feel like gg tmr really. I have a feeling i wont see a lot of ppl i know there... I hope it's a wrong feeling. I'm also so chattery now. Typing furiously into my samsung soul. Nervous energy? It's actually more of a frantic scramble for material to come out of my mind to document. To take me back. To take me away from what's bothering me now. To take me away from e feeling. I wonder if e tinman in e wizard of oz really did feel e difference in e end. I'm writing gibberish. Nonsense that no one's gonna read.