i wake up in the morning to the sound of my handphone alarm..

ringtone is called "siren"

cos thats smth that can wake me up...

sometimes i jus shut it up and go to sleep again..

then i have set a secondary alarm that goes "siren" so i wake up 5 mins later.

all of a sudden i find myself easily tired and lacking sleep.

this was not me years ago when i woke easily by 6am.

so i wake at 645am

eat some breakfast.

another change in habits..

i find myself hating breakfast too.

last time i ate a good breakfast.

now i just stare at the food.

i bathe and get ready for work.

turn on my mp3.

volume 20

i like it loud.

noise-ISOLATION earphones.

i like it pure.

i value sound.

quality.

bass.treble.

this will be the 3rd year jay chou starts my morning.

he rules my senses.

i get on my bike

ride to the station to catch the train.

i barely make it.

run up the escalator cos ive got to get to the platform by 7.26am

thats when my train comes.

if i miss this train the next train always comes in 6 mins.

if i take the 7.32 train, i'll miss the 7.38 bus.

the bus from sembawang mrt to my workplace.

so i always find myself in a mad sprint for the 7.26 train.

i always find my lungs burning.

by the time i reach the platform.

it wasnt like this 1 and a half years ago.

blood pounding up to my head.

it wasnt like this 1 and a half years ago.

i catch my breath in the train.

get off 7.33

walk to the bus stop.

(cant reveal my workplace.

cos ppl will track..

it happened b4..

ask yawen for details.lol)

walk down the field to the 856 bus stop.

i walk along a muddy mud/gravel/sandy trail

that is a result of plenty of erosion by ppl

like me

hu use this shortcut to get to the bus stop.

somedays, the bus is early.

and im running again..because

i dont want to get booked.

i got booked once for being late.

it really makes my day.

so i decided that my days do not need to be made anymore.

and so i go through my work.

i dun mind the job.

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so its time for lunch.

sometimes ppl fetch me out for lunch..

sometimes i eat canteen food.

sometimes i just eat bread and sleep the remaining time away.

i duno y im so tired.

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time to go home.

time to clean house.

time for dinner.

tv.etc.sleep.

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rough summary of my life on weekdays.

this fri will be d-day.

oh man

and ppl still think joel's gonna pull off a miracle.

wahahaha

i feel so down man.

old frens still say..aiya u sure can la

waiting for those "what happened to u joel?"

and whelan's "told u u were complacent"

i duno wad happened to me larrrh.

wait till friday 2.30 lor

u see i still can or not.