got my enlistment letter yesterday..
date: 12 april.
time: 10am
location: pulau tekong basic military training centre school 1.
heard that school 2 is slacker
but never mind.. i want the tougher training.
objective: to be super fit.

at least i wont have to stay at home..
i rather stay in the camp..
unless of course i got something to do outside maybe with frens or other ppl..
then maybe book out on wkend
but bmt no booking out.. long sia
weird logic: they allow u to bring hp, plus spare batt
BUT no charger.
LOL
then how many batt u supposed to bring?
10?
then again i suppose u wont be usin it much..
unless its at nite, or u got sm1 to msg to.
--> lucrative business opportunity:
stock up on hp batts and go inside sell on black market..
sure make lotsa $$$
haha


at least go in april means i can work and get $$$ and take my motorbike test before that
and help out in ijc opening ceremony
last job i'll do for free..
and try to see where i can go music wise..
mdm lee say i can see if i can join lee wei song school of music/ go find hai die--an option i previously had in mind, or i can go uni in USA after NS to study music..producer and all..

so uncertain..
and will have to find money for all.
bu im open to other career too..
jus that id love to be in the industry.
let me be spotted please..


gotta admit one thing now:

testing testing



i realise now im in a kinda creative slump: havent had any new musical ideas since i last recorded my 7 tracks in september..
how will i get anything done for the opening ceremony performance?
ministers will be here to cut tape all..
if i can do a good job it'll reflect good on the school..
dont think anyone will recognise my effort tho..
they're afterall jus here to cut the tape.
i cant translate how i feel into the new music anymore since then..
maybe its jus the stress of the a level getting to me..
maybe its jus that the feelings are too long now?
maybe its a sign to get on with my life?

somebody show me the way..
God show me the way?
i dont know what to do.
why must there be a feeling inside all of us called hope?


just ignore me..these are jus some thoughts..
feeling weird today