ever since i took my O level.. i have had no urge OUTDO others at studies.. no more incentive i dun get much satisfaction from beating ppl.. guess thats probably about 50% y i cant really be bothered to study. my mentality has become like: pass can le wad.. wad for so high.. pass is pass wad..
no more drive to challenge other ppl in class like in sec school..
another major factor: i seem to have lost my desire to learn.. at least from books. in sec school i read at least 2 books a week. since i started workin after o level.. i prefer ppl's company more. dun like to read liao. prefer to talk to more ppl.. listen to wad they say.. have fun with them.. no more indulgence in books.
so i guess i find ooks now VERY boring
so boring that i can sleep on lectures. sleep when doin math.. reqading bio and chem etc.. my brain will jus SHUT OFF
thats y..
of course.. the main thing is still that i am SUPER LAZY.
but the above 2 account for up to 50% of the blame. not trying to blame or make excuses.. somehow....