|phantom blue|

2010-01-09T18:30:00.005+08:00

i have a new blog. it is:
http://nowhereman43.wordpress.com/
i think most of my stuff would be up there now. i'm not too sure where i'll blog at, but wordpress definitely allows me more privacy than blogger.

2010-01-08T00:32:00.002+08:00

i have confirmed that i will be changing bike.

my new bike will be this model(above): yamaha xjr400r

any comments?=)haha

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on a more serious note: i seriously have to start saving money.

i dont know where my money's gone=//

that's really no good. how am i supposed to stop working by 50??

2010-01-08T00:10:00.003+08:00

sian. someone cocked up in camp.
so the others on top of him, and below of him (me) are now in some trouble.
to err is human. but to be intentionally BO CHAP and give that fucking heck care attitude to cause all this mess is to be a bastard.

2010-01-03T23:01:00.005+08:00

i love this album by paloma faith-<>
*awed*

do u want the truth or something beautiful? i am happy to deceive you.

lyrics:

Prophet took my hand on all saints day
He preached the values of deception
Changing shadows by a shapeshifter rules
Tales are never just for fools
The court of concience came before me
Presenting me with a heavenly angel
You took my hand and ask me, truth aside
To his questions I replied
Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
Just close your eyes and make believe
Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
I am happy to decieve you
He stood as tall as redwood trees
Drank tea from a sseamstress thimble
Didn't want to speak, the honest truth
So I spit out lies that aimed to soothe
Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
Just close your eyes and make believe
Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
I am happy to decieve you
Secrets, lying, falling veils
I can be who you want me to be
Sacred, lies in, telling tales
I can be who you want me to be
But do you want me?
Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
Just close your eyes and make believe
Do you want the truth or something beautiful?
I am happy to decieve you
Sacred lies in, tellng tales
I can be who you wants me to be x2
I can be who you wnats me to be
But do u want me?
But do u want me?

good song, great lyrics, nice voice with a different accent.
very enjoyable listening experience.
i was literally ~~grinning like a fool~~ as i was listening to her songs. very natural, very real.

albums i like 2009-2010: this one, muse-the resistance, and daniel merriweather's love and war album.

thanks st=)

2010-01-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

2010-01-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

happy 2010 all my friends, i'm very thankful to everyone, really happy that we are friends and hope we will continue to be always. (i'm sorry if the sentimentality is a bit strong here, but that's how i feel=D)

i shall not blog about 2009 in my 1st post of 2010. it will be stored in the safest place of all for eternal safekeeping- my memories.

and i have a few resolutions for myself, which i'll lay down soon. but not tonight. i'm very very tired.

God bless all of you in 2010=)
take care people.

2009-12-31T13:00:00.003+08:00

i feel really excited when i think of my upcoming traffic police test in less than 3 weeks. the "gian"(hokkien for urge) to change bike is here again=/
models i've been looking at for the past few days in online forums and ads.

gsxr400- s4 spec 1-

shadow ace 400-

dragstar 400-

bandit 400-

i havent made up my mind-_- to change or not to change.

2009-12-31T01:10:00.005+08:00

i just finished watching "once".

watch it to know how i feel. i'm gonna leave everything here UNSAID.

i dont feel qualified to provide a synopsis on such a perfect movie. i just know you wont regret watching it. the songs are so heartfelt. awesome.

thanks telling me to watch it. haha

2009-12-30T01:14:00.005+08:00

every word. every second, every moment.
crazy? only me.

2009-12-29T00:36:00.002+08:00

i was to see the Alps up north
the soft green hills of Tuscany
romance in the rugged Apennines
and feel Vesuvius' breath on me

but you didnt tell me we were bound for Holland
no you didnt tell me you had changed your mind

it is such a different place
and how could i tell my friends
i spent my days being mesmerized
by dutch windmill technology

and i dont care if there're tulips here in holland
cos you didnt tell me you had changed your mind

oh.. the shame
the face that i have tagged to my name.

alone, i stand here all alone
and God my feet hurt from the running that i've done
but u cant feel the pain the way i feel
standing here alone

you will never know
how i have shielded(sheltered) you from calamity
you could never know the plans
my father has for humanity

did i hear you say that you're lonely here in holland?
could you ever know the process of God's mind?

oh.. the shame
the face that i have tagged to my name.

alone, i stand here all alone
and how my feet hurt from the running that i've done
but u cant feel the pain the way i feel
standing here alone

2009-12-26T23:46:00.006+08:00

dear blog,

i am feeling really disorganized right now. i dont think it's the lack of sleep, though i was awakened this morning by some very LOUD acapella music my father was blasting from my sister's laptop. anyway i could "sleep back" after that.

last night we were at yh's house for christmas. which was nice. it's only my third landed property i've been to in singapore. small but nice piano(paco- never seen before too), very "guai" cat(judging from the way it walked), good food, great time and better company. i'm sorry, but let me reiterate that i shall by no means be pressured into writing in standard Queen's english in my blog. because i want to write it the way i feel. so i'm sorry if anyone disapproves.

sometimes i wish that time wouldnt pass so quickly. and it's a very moody character, time. it chooses it's moments to be fleeting and stalls when it feels like it. but alas it has no master. so we are all under it's prerogative.

i have been trying( in vain) to capture the christmas feeling this year and melt it down
into a song. but i have been very very unsuccessful in the area of lyrics- i cant decide what i want to say. there's too many things to say to the audience but limited by the melody.
and having my father home is helping with the recording. cos the place is more noisy with him around. and i get interrupted a lot more, to hear his opinions on a wide range of subject matter, from my life to my current job to my music. i feel really flustered when he's around. partly cos i cant get anything done, mostly because whatever he has to say is not going to make a difference to the situation, because he talks but who was responsible for it all that happened? i dont have to spell it out- heaven and earth know.

i went to malaysia at about 8pm for petrol(and to try to calm my racing heart.) saw this yellow piece of paper stuck at the petrol kiosk that restricted foreign vehicles from fuelling up more than 20litres of malaysian petrol before they exit the country; i was wondering how would they check. and why were they so dumb? we singaporeans go in to fill up petrol from them because we find our pumps (for the same brand and grade) more expensive than theirs. arent we giving them more business? money? why do they want to limit the amount of petrol we buy from them? am i so naive i'm not seeing the other point?

i find this year to be closing way faster than i can handle! i hope the last few days can be spent very meaningfully, with my friends.

the ride earlier calmed me a little, but my heart's working up again. you know it's the same feeling as when ur writing a song, or u see a certain someone smile. or u see a double rainbow first thing in the morning once u wake up and leave ur tentage to make for breakfast, though u know it's gonna be another long day in australia. drinking doesnt make you calm, though it makes you ponder, long and deep. sometimes u ponder until u lose track of your thoughts. in any case pondering is really bad beacuse sometimes it gets u nothing done.

just realised that i'm on duty for hof on the 1st of jan. that's a friday, and a public holiday. what a coincidence. ~~couldnt there be like, a break because it's bew year's day?~~ haha

feeling calmer now. i was intending to type until i was calm enough to sleep. from not so calm to more calm, i've actually lost some of wht i'd wanted to say. real lousy.

i wrote a diary for when i was in australia. it helped me contain some of my most private thoughts that i had. i think i want to do that for 2010. couple of song ideas are in there too.
i noticed that i can come up with tunes based on only single words. i have the chorus to one song titled: alone, from my stint there. it's not about me alone. it was about this tree that i saw, standing against the evening sun. with no companions(peers) about it. it was just the grass. and the mountain range in the distance. and it was all alone. and almost the instant my mind uttered that word, i had the tune for the chorus. all these songs will probably go into what i call my back catalogue. to be kept and buried. i've even forgotten the earlier ideas from a few years back. if i can forget them means they're probably not good enough.

i really admire songwriters. they have this ability to transcend the area of awareness of everyone else to create that song. i'm nowhere near. come to think of it, i'm nowhere near anything at all. music- half-past six. no grades. only can "bluff" when i play. voice-awful. education-lagging behind. eloquence- pitiful. i only write well to myself and think and "voiceover" fluently in my own mind to myself. somehow it always gets lost in the transmission to whoever. i really really want to set all this right. but how?

i thought u played very well. i've never hear u play before, and i was pleasantly surprised! i hear ur run over mozart's sonata=) i think piano players should learn to move away from static and boring chord playing. i'm sorry. i love runs. wild runs that let me see and feel more accurately what the composer is seeing and feeling. as such i love chopin and liszt. they run alot. and their chords are lovely too. i like cadenzas and adlibs. but i havent played them for so long. i havent played the piano properly(believe it or not) for 3 years. i have not done scales for the same amount of time. i'm still getting away with what i have left in my 2 hands but that's gonna go soon if i dont get back to the basics. i have to make time to go back to the piano. and become closer friends with the guitar.

i have so many things i'd like to do. i seriously hope to get that song done soon. and another song that will be guitar led, for a smaller audience. david has not let me hear his idea yet. we dont write songs together( just for the record), but he's been telling me about it since i was in australia. i'll bet it's probably a good idea too.

when feelings get the better of you a song will inevitably be born.

feel like i can sleep now. haha

thanks blog.

church and practice tmr. work on monday. back to business.

2009-12-26T00:31:00.002+08:00

hey.
merry christmas everyone!
i am really not in a mood to blog right now, though there's much i'd like to say and write down.
but this year i spent christmas with friends and family. and that's what's worth it all.

2009-12-21T23:18:00.001+08:00

not feeling well. think i'm catching a cold.
headache and neckache. feel like sneezing. going to sleep=(

2009-12-21T00:41:00.002+08:00

watched the princess and the frog with st, lilian, mh, zw and cm
very well planned show, kudos to disney.
haha.
=)

2009-12-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

went out with m on wed. caught zombieland at the cathay.
had conquerors on thur and fri. and had port ops on sat.
was back in camp today. will be back at port tmr for trucking of more tanks.
haiz. wasted weekend working. *rue*

music i'm listening to now.
no reply at all- genesis.

tired.
2 consecutive days of work till 9.
tmr's another early day. though not as bad as sat( had to wake at 5)

i cant think of the words. how?

2009-12-11T23:21:00.001+08:00

back to work tmr. 530 am.
sunday burned too.

2009-12-11T00:10:00.003+08:00

and i'll be back to work very soon. starting tmr afternoon.
then sat, sun and mon. so i'm not gonna be able to play on sun.
i dont know how i should feel about that.

2009-12-08T11:50:00.005+08:00

alright. time for an update on what's been happening in my life.

came back from overseas training in the land of oz 5 days and 3 hours ago. went to dfs, got this limited edition absolut vodka in purple and black imitation leather wrap with studs, a merlot(i think) and 3 cans of tiger classic. havent drunk any yet.
that same day, went to collect my bike from nus. cos i lent it to vic during my 2month overseas stint. went to the bike shop at bukit merah to get it fixed up. not much damage actually, just some new scratches to the fuel tank, head fairing, exhaust pipe cover and broken pillion leg rest. vic buanged. got caught in the rain on the way there. went home, had dinner, and slept. first night back in singapore.
it felt good to be back. back to my friends, my bike, and my computer. lol
church the next day. stress cos i didnt know there were so many events in dec. and i'm on roster quite a bit it seems.
played pool with reg d peeps the next day after dinner. many many months since i handled a cue stick. my aiming and shot proficiency has dropped significantly. not that i'm pro, but i feel so lousy when i see that shots i could have handled in the past with confidence fail to materialise now. lol.
and the event was "graced" by 2 special guests. ~~one more special than the other, cos it didnt seem like she'd come.~~ heh.
sunday, was a mini regret.
oh. went to citymusic on sat afternoon to get my amp, effects and a mixer. spent about 700, collected the mixer the same day, then went vincent's hse to be calefare.

side note purely for educational purposes-

(according to the dictionary of singlish and singaporean english)
calafare /kah-lah-fair, kair-lair-, kɑːlɑːˈfɛː, kɛːlɛː–/ n. [Cant., origin uncertain: see 2008 quot.] Also cair-lair-fare, calefare, callafair. 1 An actor playing a minor role or bit part in a film or television programme, an extra. 2 fig. An idle person, a layabout; a supporter, a hanger-on.
1 2008 “Are you sure this is how you spell calefare?” Calefare [blog for Mediacorp TV comedy series], 30 July. There is truly no such word in the dictionary. Pronounced as “care-lair-fare”, the term refers to bit-role actors, or extras in the entertai[n]ment industry in Hong Kong, Malaysia and Singapore. No one can really agree on how to spell the colloquialism, some spell it as “Callafair”, some spell it as “Cair-lair-Fare”. According to the producers, the term “calefare” – literally translated from Latin means to “keep warm”. And since the producers decided to spell it as “Calefare”, we, the calefare, are sticking with it. Nobody really knows for certain how we extras came to be referred to as “calefare”. One theory is that the term evolved from a Cantonese phrase (“chia li fei”) that referred to the lunch packs served to us – tomato rice, curry rice and coffee.

=)
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monday, went with vic to collect the amp and effects which i did not collect on sat because of the shortage of stock.
today's tuesday. just enrolled for my class 2A motorcycle license. going for my 1st lesson later. overdue imo, cos i was supposed to be able to take it in sep, but postponed it for the oz trip.
cant wait to ride a 400cc bike:)
and did a check st saf yatch club for PPDCL. shd be taking that with vic. cant wait to be able to pilot a motorboat!

2009-12-06T01:10:00.001+08:00

here i am again.
i dont have so much heart to lose.

2009-12-05T13:32:00.001+08:00

random discoveries today

2009-12-05T12:34:00.001+08:00

yes, i'm back.
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there's too much on my mind now to say here.
i think i'll leave it to get sorted out inside first.
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i need ideas=(

2009-12-03T12:37:00.001+08:00

2009-10-18T19:19:00.001+08:00

and i saw someone online today=)

45 days outfield countdown starts today. then back to hostel for a week?
then back to singapore!!

2009-10-17T20:45:00.003+08:00

10 days in, and i dont know how to identify what i'm feeling, really.

anyway.

was on the way back to camp a little earlier, heard this song on oz radio (107.9) i think, and they had this song playing.. managed to catch and remember a little of the lyrics.. i think it's this song.

shinedown- if only you knew.

not bad.

the words are not coming out right now.

2009-10-10T09:34:00.002+08:00

cold.
driving the whole day ytd.. orientation. zz. instructor was really mean to us. shall not elaborate here.. too public.
went back to bunk, bathed cold water for the first time at night. haha. shivered, suddenly awake from the shivering, jacketed, played psp till my eyes closed of their own accord- roughly 1230 oz timing. and woke at 6am.
it's easy to wake here cos by 6, it's really like singapore's 8am.
woke with a headache in my right side of my head, panadoled and slept it away.
sleep is an unexplainable yet marvelous thing.

going to port this afternoon.

2009-10-08T19:06:00.003+08:00

i'm in australia now!
using my friend's laptop to blog, and online.. but NOONE's online..
well, the iMpOrTaNt ppl arent. heh.=/

sian.

i miss the 6th of oct. like hell. haha-_-

aus is so inconvenient, it's 910pm here, but only 710 there in singapore- which explains why no one's online.
well..
my friend wants to use his com already.

i think i'll rely on the little notebook my ycg gave me=)

2009-10-07T01:54:00.004+08:00

had the best dinner out i had in ages=)
flying soon! 13 hours.
leave you all with this piece of music

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7QJ4HJP97M

it's from yours truly, simply titled:
"nocturne/ to a faraway land ( theme for a friend)"

hope u like it:)

it's my farewell piece for 2 months.

see i thought i'd document my emotions in music instead of words in a blog- feel it's more exclusive. haha
there's more to the "peacefulness" you'll hear. in fact i didnt intend for it that way. the first part's supposed to be a sigh, in a sense, wistfulness, followed by an exposition where it gets heated, because of the people and things i'll miss when over there, followed by the resignation towards the end.
well, vic's just come to collect my bike..
hope he rides safely.
hope the days will pass faster from now till dec!

sumio-sy
miss everyone.

gonna do my packing now
haha
goodbye!

2009-10-06T00:15:00.004+08:00

been meeting up with friends these few days. haha
met iswan on sat, for breakfast, and shop, for some stuff..
met vic today for lunch, and to do subrider for him, so he can ride my bike in my absence..and went to buy stuff for outfield use, like wet tissue and all.
zz
cant wait to go-_-
completed the music. it's from the series theme for a friend titled to a foreign land.
might be puting it up for dl.
haha
see how

2009-10-03T23:19:00.004+08:00

feel like a noob.
i screwed up main practise big time today.
the learning curve is really a lot greater down there.. partly because of the "new" chinese songs for tmr, and largely due to the double keyboards- because they're midi-ed together, u have a common piano sound, and 2 pedals independent of each other. the trick is coordination of left and right leg, for each individual line ur playing on both keyboards- very tough, cos there's no way u can practise at home.
so gonna try to "play cheat" a bit..
i hope all goes well tmr...or at least, better.
i dont want to look like a noob in front of everyone.

2009-10-03T02:55:00.000+08:00

actually, i'm sad.
duno what to do.

2009-09-30T23:43:00.002+08:00

6 days.
i ma os nagon sims uoy, uoy wonk?

2009-09-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

was at the port today. hot, humid, but windy. the wind's better in the day.
at night, it gets cloudy, making it a very dreamy scene. then the lights come on in the buildings faraway, on the structures in the sea, on the decks of boats as the sky turns from blue to grey, and the clouds become gloomy in the silhouettes of their day-selves.

this gloom and the outline the lights create are oddly still and romantic. and u see the water swirl below you. it doesnt look deep. you feel like you could step into it and walk towards the lights in the sea.

they day self and the night self are always remarkably different.

very tired. waiting for friday. then i shd be able to have a short break before i fly. hope i can play on friday too. zz. everything's so last minute.

2009-09-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

i was feeling really tired after church today, got home after the usual jb trip, and went to nap for 2 hours, waking up at almost 8pm for dinner, and to watch the f1 race.

9days.
i'll sure as hell miss every&one.

2009-09-26T00:15:00.005+08:00

leaders event tonight..
so decided to have supper with gerald and co.
11 days.
*shakes head*
starting to get just a bit.. i dont know. anxious? frantic?
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i realised that i was really naive about motorcycles until i got this one.
i thought that a sportsbike was the way to go if i wanted speed.
well i was wrong.
cos i'm cornering faster and lower with this one, grazing my footrest againt the road if i'm not careful.
recently on the way to woodlands polyclinic i dived into the left-hand corner and grazed the left footrest, causing it to fold in and throw up my slipper, which landed a couple of feet behind me after doing some aerial acrobatics of is own.
and that was when i realised that cornering is not wholly about the bike. true, the tyre profile matters( mine presently is supposed to be terrible for fast corners), but the skill(line, angle, accelerating and braking etc) and guts do matter.

today on my way from my "home" camp back to another camp, i "raced" an RGSX.
you see neo tiew road has a couple of lanes that can bring you out to kranji road and the road that will lead you to sungei buloh.so after the T junction out of my camp i took the lead. it was at the apex of the slope that he overtook me, and he chose to take lane 2. i crested to the next apex and took lane 3( my favourite) because the nature of the lane allows one to travel round the bends really fast by merely taking a good line across it.
lane 2 however is a great for bikes/vehicles with a fast pickup cos most of it is straight, before u meet a hump and a right turn prior to exiting kranji road.
heart-thumping, i glanced to my right as i exited lane 3, to see (with glee) that he was behind me- i didnt expect to see him behind me, him being a big bike and all, and i glanced at my mirrors to confirm that it was indeed him. needless to say, he caught up( he's such a big bike). and pulled away on the long stretch of kranji road, before he got hampered by a car, allowing me to catch up.
then came the hump at the reservoir, him probably being unfamiliar and taking it too slowly: i took the lead again.
again, a couple of seconds later, he was pulling alongside me and overtook me again at the long stretch along the reservoir.
but the next traffic light saved me again, and i regained the lead cos i knew the timing of tha traffic light and stayed moving on my bike long enough to wait out the green light, giving me the faster pickup.
and he overtook me again, but finally we reached the same camp together- a coincidence, because i dont know who he is.
but i learnt a couple of things from that little trip:
1)singapore really has a lot of traffic lights.
2)you dont need a fast bike to be fast. it's knowing the environment you have to "race/ ride" in that makes the difference.
3) there's really enough speed on any bike for all new riders- you DONT have to get a sports bike. it's not as fuel efficient as road bikes are anyway. so what if you have a top speed of 250kph on ur sportsbike, useable speed for the road say is 100, most bikes can touch that. and this is where the engine displacement of a motorcycle matters less. the smaller bike would just lose to the larger one in terms of straight line speed, when the power difference due to acceleration is prominent.
for corners, that case is definitely not true, because how low u need to go and fast depends on the individual's guts and timing.
and that's where the small and lighter bikes win.

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wow. long post. havent written so long in ages.
kinda tired, reached church just in time to play too.
zz... my brain's shutting down soon.

hai.

2009-09-22T00:06:00.003+08:00

busy busy.. why am i so BUSY??
(my mind is still subconsciously stuck on the musical lines)
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i found (finally) a game on fb that i like, its called street racing or sth..
kinda addictive. haha.
( "i read books.....she's got one too" )

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and i hate packing.
havent finished yet. guess i gotta go back on wed tho i'm on leave to turn in my field pack. i hope it wont be too late. all thanks to the new fb game, and my dad for intruding in juat now to have another debate with me about the note on the piano relative to a certain note of hey jude.
took up like 2 hours, and i wanted to msn instead.
zz
anyway.
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changed aus dollars today.. 1k sing gets u abt 800 aus.
very expensive.
yet the rate's kinda lower today cos of currency fluctuation.. 1.23.. last week i saw 1.27..
so i guess its a good thing i changed today.
and it reminds me that i'm flying off very soon.

still not done yet.

gtg..

17 days

2009-09-19T23:44:00.002+08:00

was talking to andrew earlier..
hope to meet up with the gang before i fly..

oh man oh man..

hopefully next tues night..

why must i be so busy with camp stuff now?

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had a musical idea couple of hours back.
was about to record it down..but gave up.
dropout..
for some reason my com can only process and record without me running other processes on it. or the audio will dropout or "hang"
and i had youtube, msn and a movie on.
anway, i cant remember it now =/

i think i'm gonna write sth before i go.
=(

2009-09-17T23:47:00.001+08:00

i want to learn all this now=)

2009-09-17T22:48:00.001+08:00

i dont care if he's gay. i personally wont believe that.

he's brilliant.
such a great song.

2009-09-15T00:37:00.001+08:00

i think i made someone angry today, and in the process must have pissed off a lot of people.
not gonna defend myself here.
sorry dude.
hope you'll accept my apology.

2009-09-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

today, was one of the best sundays ive had in a long time.
i wont find words to describe it. because quite simply, words here will be like trying to draw a circle with a series of squares. it may come close, but it'll never be true to what it's meant to be.

2009-09-12T02:01:00.003+08:00

the days roll up and peel away
the pages are blowing by
26 days and i'll be gazing at another sky
on another land
while you'll be here
and i'll be there

the voices will sing different
for wind has many brothers
their sisters leave their haunting tunes behind
when sand begins to fly
and machines' roar takes over
i'll listen for the song the sisters leave
as they roam and rover.

(waiting for my computer to sort out the music i've recorded into it.)

2009-09-06T23:42:00.001+08:00

something that made my sunday=)

now i cant stop smiling.

2009-09-05T23:55:00.000+08:00

yay. musical is almost done.
my job is almost done.. still apprehensive about that last song. ha. have a feeling it differed from expecations.
and how will the audience see it?

well, gonna spend 12 hours in camp tmr. and its sunday.
you can imagine how i must feel, when i'd much rather be somewhere else.

12 hours is actually an underestimate, if i include my travelling time to and fro, to be calculative.
well why shouldn't i?

haiz.

sunday work. monday also work. reminds me of an song that goes~ monday monday...

2009-08-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

lol.
ok. seriously unglam>.<

etude in c minor opus 10 no 3.
the first time i played it, i really didnt expect the ending to be like that.

brainstorm is overated..

21

2009-08-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

celebrated my birthday at timbre with my jc peeps..
thanks guys=)

and to all my sec school friends, and everyone else who wished me. i really appreciated it.

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musical's going nicely, i think..

tlhinsihiesgkdilrsdmosinhoeigkaunwdiemtthor:eiay.

2009-08-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

there's this juice i cant get enough off.. ever since i bought some milk at the supermarket a few days ago( it came along with it).
it's mangosteen-pomegranate juice. and its nice=)

just done woth watching sweeney todd. a really short summary?
it's a complicated show with uncomplicated characters.

damn. 2 days.

2009-08-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

"life is a peculiar event.
u are a part of it, yet can be apart from it.
u definitely "have" life( or else you wouldnt be alive), but does life "have" you?
do you know where u belong?
do you know why you're here?
do u understand the reason for ur existence, and can u comprehend the possibility if u not being "here"?
because that possibility seems fathomably simple. but that's because we dont know which part of life we're tied into. therefore we cant compute the result of us not being in it.
i feel like i'm not a part of anything. possibly attributed to army syndrome. which is a critical illness that can only be cured by ord.
something of a commodity, actually.
well but commodities arent conventionally living things, unless u are a farmer, or an unconventional trader.

in any sense, i feel this terrible feeling today that i lack so much, possess nothing, and want what i cannot get. all of which mean the same actually, because one leads to the other.

i feel mentally deficient, physically inoperative, and emotionally (unrendered??)
waiting for my cough to get better. i miss the taste of beer.
i find i do things to find that i feel apart from it. and yet i still do them anyway.
perhaps to find that in time they belong to me."

quoted from < welcome to existence > by sw tch ft

2009-08-18T19:17:00.001+08:00

27 dresses is so "sad" at some points! especially for jane. haha..

tessa tessa..

2009-08-15T23:24:00.001+08:00

hmm. actually,
my energy level's really low.
like low morale. no lood to do much.
haiz.
what's wrong with blogger??

2009-08-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

hmm. actually,
my energy level's really low.
like low morale. no lood to do much.
haiz.

2009-08-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

i got flu. cough. running nose. urgh.
i cant concentrate.

alot to think about. musical's gonna kill me if i dont recover soon.

(and thanks. haha)

2009-08-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

i have to start writing.
and i need a muse.
creativity comes and goes like the tides.

2009-08-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

ive got this problem.
i write better than i speak.
why?
cos whatever i want to say goes through my mind 1st. and i HEAR my mind speaking it. but the sounds somehow dont reach my mouth. and i end up cant really talk in front of ppl.
it gets better with time.. cos then somehow the pathway "warms up" and i start to talk normally. but i wish there was no lag time.

cos its screwing somethings up.

2009-08-08T00:37:00.003+08:00

"i had the weirdest dream this afternoon as i was sleeping, and i'll never never forget it.
how could i?
how could something that wouldnt happen in real life happen so vividly in a dream?

it wasnt just the image. there was the sense of touch too. the welcome rush and the pulse between twenty that i'll never ever forget.

and i awoke to discover that everything was different. and thus it dawned on me that
that never happened! and the daze lasted for almost an hour. but the feeling and the memory lingers."

2009-08-07T17:35:00.003+08:00

2009-08-07T16:35:00.001+08:00

oh dear

2009-08-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

this has got to be the most trying moment of my life right now(work-related).

i feel so so out of place/out of control.

i also feel pressured cos a lot of outside things to do in sept and aug.

like church stuff.

really need to see how it goes.

and of course there's also another thing:)

playbed dontout

2009-07-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

i sold my bike today. a bit of a nostalgic feeling now.. of all the times i rode it, at 110kph on expressways..
how i had an accident with it last year in the cte tunnel..
how i rode it into jb for repair when my leg still couldnt bend.
there was joy and pain for the bike and me.
joy, bliss when i rode up to 140kph on my favourite expressway sle-tpe-ecp-changi.
camera free plus almost always no heavy traffic, feeling the tyres grip the road, feeling the slight bumps and undulations in the tar..the wind.. the roar of the engine..
its a given that it was a noisy engine. but then again, which sports bike wouldnt be?=P

the most trying part was definitely the accident. and yet it still served me very well-7 months after till i sold it today- out of practicality.
sorry bike.. but i would have liked to keep u. ur really more powerful than the present one.. cos ur a 2 stroker. but my priority now is to save money for other purposes.. and the new bike's petrol consumption is really good!.. so..
yep
hope u like ur new owner=))

and i hope i see u around!

and i'll never forget ur license number=)
(will post our 1st and last photo when blogger's ready to let me upload )
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finally able to go to church. good thing too.. cos i needed to play.
after that went to eat with st, lilian, meng hui, zhi wei, bryan.

and time flies. when does it not. haha

2009-07-28T23:44:00.001+08:00

写信告诉我今天，海是什么颜色？
夜夜陪著你的海，心情又如何？
灰色是不想说，蓝色是忧郁。
而漂泊的你，狂浪的心，停在哪里？

写信告诉我今夜，你想要梦什么？
梦里外的我是否都让你无从选择？
我揪著一颗心，整夜都闭不了眼睛。
为何你明明动了情，却又不靠近？

听，海哭的声音！
叹惜著谁又被伤了心，却还不清醒！
一定不是我，至少我很冷静。
可是泪水，就连泪水，也都不相信！

听，海哭的声音！
这片海未免也太多情，悲泣到天明！
写封信给我，就当最後约定。
说你在离开我的时候，是怎样的心情！

写信告诉我今夜，你想要梦什么？
梦里外的我是否都让你无从选择？
我揪著一颗心，整夜都闭不了眼睛。
为何你明明动了情，却又不靠近？

听，海哭的声音！
叹惜著谁又被伤了心，却还不清醒！
一定不是我，至少我很冷静。
可是泪水，就连泪水，也都不相信！

听，海哭的声音！
这片海未免也太多情，悲泣到天明！
写封信给我，就当最後约定。
说你在离开我的时候，是怎样的心情！

2009-07-27T23:23:00.001+08:00

when i'm tired, i am really easily irritated.
think i've found something to manage that. seems to be working.
really tired.
waiting for a break.
goodnight.

2009-07-23T23:33:00.008+08:00

i'm really really tired.
been having super late 6 day weeks. morning till 8pm. one day weekend of respite.
and honestly i cant take it anymore. today i got home at 930pm. dinner, bath, and i'm feeling exhausted and irritable.
tmr i'll miss church too. have night tank driving.
saturday is a full day. leaves me sunday. how how how.
and i have doubts abt being able to go next friday too...

prep for australia is really strenuous. and the ppl dont make it easier. how come everyone's so political?
able to complain, backstab, and still meet each other and still gei siau act fren-fren, then the instant the person walk away say bad stuff abt him?
how do i know i'm not being backstabbed?
lowest rank in the team some more anything sure kena jia one.

sad. stressed. tired but restless. how fucked up that feels.

where's the love? world peace? bah.

if it cant exist in the microcosm that every company and workplace is then to even dream of its realisation is romantic in the least.

i'm sorry. being educated doesnt help u in the army, where all the old birds have marked their territory and defend it with valor. i have no desire to be a bird who grows old eating kill.
i want to see the world in its simple beauty. i want to be genuine. it doesnt matter if you make use of me. i'll still help you with all my heart. of course in the end i'll know if you did, and i'll be disappointed. but i think i can live with that. plus iflike faith and like faith can do it why not that of unlike faith?

but sometimes being human i get extremely fed up it too.
and i still have my faith to remember. thats what makes things miserable.
so step on me. its only 2 more years. i can take it.

and i'll make a way for myself. my asshole of a family can sit and watch.

i'm sorry i'm probably just very tired.

2009-07-22T22:49:00.001+08:00

2009-07-20T13:14:00.003+08:00

recently listening to TAKE THAT's new album- the circus.
and it's good!
cant belive how much they'sve changed. i like their style more now.
check them out.
it's really a welcome change for me.

plus this song's really cool. from the lonely island's debut album. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pXfHLUlZf4

2009-07-13T19:54:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kG9MPxDdj5Q
x japan- tears(mv)
another song i love.
now with a com at home i realise how many video performances of songs i've been missing. haha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fd4B-CVqStg&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnD5U8oLlow&NR=1
this one's better.

2009-07-12T21:28:00.003+08:00

watched ice age 3 on sat=)
i love the baby t-rexes. haha so cute. so mini. eyes so round. so innocent in comparison to the mental image we have of t-rexes.
and spent the rest of the evening/night chatting.
time well spent.

online now=)
its times like this.

2009-07-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

bad mood.
kinda flared at someone i didnt mean to.
=(

2009-07-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Beujgb0OBeY&feature=related
one of my favourite songs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuAxoaR2m3c&feature=related
this one's live.
there's always this magic on the stage.

2009-07-05T23:49:00.002+08:00

i wanted to change my blogskin today.
but gave up.
just.
no patience to do the alignments.
haha
maybe tmr.
----------------------------
i realised i still really really like christina aguilera's songs
listening to "the voice within" now
its really well written.
i hope she continues to write songs.

sian cos tmr go back to camp. comeon 2.5 more years.
oh ya. changed my bike. so far its reception has not been as bad as i feared=p

well..

2009-06-27T21:37:00.002+08:00

well...
its over.
but i guess i passed my own test.
i didnt compromise in playing his song.
and i think i did it the best i could. and of course the arrangement is from your truly.

sad and disappointed la

well........

i was actually quite overcome when i had to do the encore.

=(
but i learnt a lot this time around.

2009-06-24T23:38:00.001+08:00

i like this song-
red, by daniel merriweather.
it's playing behind.

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And I'm alright
Standing in the streetlights here
Is this meant for me
My time on the outside is over
We don't know how you're spending
all of your days
Knowing that love isn't here
You see the pictures
But you don't know their names
Cause love isn't here

Chorus
And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it red

No sympathy
When shouting out is all you know
Behind your lies
I can see the secrets you don't show
We don't know how you're spending
All of your days
Knowing that love isn't here
You see the pictures
But you don't know their names
Cause love isn't here

Chorus
And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it red
When - you took something perfect
And painted it red

You take the best things from
Then everything gets empty
That's not a world that I need
Oooh, you take the best things from me
Then everything gets empty
That's not a world that I need
Oohhhh

Chorus
And I can't do this by myself
All of these problems, they're all in your head
anekatips.com
And I can't be somebody else
You took something perfect
And painted it "red"

When - you took something perfect
And painted it red
(repeat)
You took something perfect
And painted it red

2009-06-23T00:06:00.000+08:00

conversation=)
even if its modern, it's not silent.

2009-06-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

i was very happy tonight.
haha..

2009-06-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

jus got home.. from meeting kok peng, who's gonna be helping me sing my song.

somehow i feel like i gotta work on another song based on this theme: that room? it's yours. always.

camp tmr. i want to be civilian-.- badly.

2009-06-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

fyi
i love art.

2009-06-07T00:26:00.001+08:00

i just want you to know that i could not have made it through without you.

2009-06-06T00:49:00.002+08:00

hi.
it's one am. i'm waiting for my show "the andromeda strain" to load.
it's a tv movie series. and it's really interesting- sci fi stuff.
i used to be interested in all this stuff.. bacteria viruses space travel portals and wormholes..but it's kinda not dominant now..

and yea=(

2009-05-31T22:51:00.001+08:00

i'd rather die in a bike accident than live through another fight at home.

2009-05-29T14:45:00.002+08:00

hello.

went out with the group ytd.
decided to pool plus drink.
so in order to cut costs( heineken and carlsberg cost $5/ can at occ!!) v brought the liquor!
so we just had to buy some cans of drink and get the ice to down with the tequila and vodka absolut.
and from there i discovered my drink of choice.
to date.
it's tequila. so next time if anyone wants to give me liquor, let it be tequila please=)
i love the taste.

so after pool we went to the nearest cofeeshop for rojak, spring chicken, fried wan tans and fries=)
and of course more liquor.
and the best part was when v said to finish the last half bottle of vodka cos he didnt want to bring it home. so we split it neat and bottoms up'd( pardon the poor language)
and had weed.
and the twins said that their house is like a duty free store for liquor. so cant wait to go again.
lol
lately got the urge to drink leh. ~~havent been dead drunk since last april anyway.~~

watched madagascar 2 online just now.
lesson: love is blind. giraffe and gloria had a happy ending.
best friends are hard to find but will always be there for each other.
the show's really cute and nice.
having pringles for lunch now-.-
nth to eat at home today cos my mother went to visit grandfather.
anyway..

2009-05-26T23:42:00.003+08:00

hmm
i'm very tired. and i noticed i dont have much appetite then. but i have a tendency to munch small food like cookies. just finished one pack of amos.
back from prayer meeting.
it was different today.
ok i'm really v tired. i think i have duty tmr. someone's.
zz
wanted to take off tmr.
well.
goodnight to u. goodnight to me. goodnight to the world.

2009-05-25T22:34:00.004+08:00

ok
i didnt know i was so deprived.
check this out-
fur elise improv-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fa837PCtXAQ&feature=PlayList&p=5D7C7298A1D2C8CE&index=1&playnext=2&playnext_from=PL
and there's this beautiful saw player by the name of austin who uses it to play ave maria!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kmft674XPC0&feature=related

talents=)
wow
i'm in awe.
------------
slept late, slept in. woke up for a nice curry chicken lunch with someone.
slack and fool ard and relaxed and visited the library!
unbelievable. cos i havent tread anywhere within 1 metre of 2 adjacent bookshelves since jc.
lol
went for my test.

i passed my ftt today too=)

cant wait to get my car license

2009-05-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

u...better not disappear and never surface again..
or i'm gonna be super depressed.
lol.
serious.

2009-05-21T23:25:00.008+08:00

i'm sorry.

i really didnt think it would become like this. and believe me, i feel terrible about it. and i'm not denying it. it's still my fault.

did another song arrangemt for david today.

i think its my best output in such a short time.

but today's takeaway was something from someone, and how to be a good christian.

it's really very difficult.

i tried my best today.

thank God.

2009-05-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

hello
long time since i was here.
well...

submitted the songs alr.
not v satisfied with the outcome..but well.. guess its beyond my ability now even.
maybe another time i'll get it right.
i have a habit of not getting things right the 1st time round.

and its a good thing u came out of obscurity. lol

this is a time when words will never suffice.

2009-05-11T23:14:00.002+08:00

never been busier all my life. i mean the last time i felt so hustled by deadlines i was in j2 facing my imminent a level exams and having less than 45 marks in math and chemistry.

come back from camp, record.
replay, dont like the sound, redo.
replay. dont like the idea, delete.
i prob not gonna get anything done at this rate. and i'm gonna be busy on thur fri sat. so effectively only next week's left.
and i NEED a mic preamp!
anyone who HAS one can i borrow? for 2 days???

being busy is good in that it gives one the excuse to intentionally brush everything else aside on the pretext that what one's busy with really requires all of his attention that one cant and shd not be distracted.
but ultimately one still does. because busyness never wins.

2009-05-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

i'm supposed to be off tmr. cos of this "in lieu of vesak day" holiday..

but going back to shoot imt.

thur range fri duty.

tough week.

time's running out for this yellow mic thing too.

hope they organisers decide to e-x-t-e-n-d the deadline

haha

watched xmen online

decided that i'll prob not have the time to go catch it in the movies next week

and the week after would prob be too late. anyway there's transformers and terminator coming up too

been watching movies at home

watched the most recent indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull

(liked the series a lot since young)

and still do

watched the dvd i bought- the magnificient seven- some wild west cowboy genre show

nice

been watching sbk videos on youtube.

love the tactics and the guts of the racers..

i love riding motorbike=)

8 months alrready and still not sian of it.

other ppl told me the thrill will wear off.

not true leh

anyway its not the thrill really. its the happy and free feeling i get from the road and the wind and the surroundings

i think something u like u'll always like no matter what.

less than 4 months can upgrade license to class 2a

get a BIGGER bike.

haha

but i'll prob keep this one till the coe is up. have feelings for it le

lol

accident with me and all

still serves me so well everyday after i sent it for repair and repainting.

the biggest picture(eventuality):

in 1 yr 4 months more, can upgrade to class 2 bike-- >400cc.

and my dream bike is the yamaha r6 (above)

that's the '08 model. seen the 09 model..but i think i still prefer the 08 one.

ok time to go. gotta reach camp early tmr.

2009-05-10T01:08:00.003+08:00

i was feeling fucking off from friday..
i DONT know why.
but i know i'm still feeling like that now.

you know something?
i think i need to open another blog where all my feelings can be safely locked inside.
cos this is
just too heavy.

2009-05-05T00:03:00.003+08:00

you know its so bloody easy to forget that God is behind our lives at every point of time?
i think i need to change tonight.
seriously what if God just forgot about me?

2009-05-03T22:43:00.002+08:00

imagine my glee when i opened my fridge, peered under the compartment racks and saw, throught the vegetables, that i still had BEER!
and in one smooth gulp i swallowed half the can, relishing the chill and the flavour as it swilled down my throat into my belly, before taking time to savour the last half of the can. (i still have a bottle of wine inside too)
but nothing beats cold beer when u're feeling out of place.
feeling off.
shall go get more tmr.

2009-05-01T01:37:00.002+08:00

big jam at the causeway tonight..
went in ard 11pm earlier for petrol.
well.. at least i wont have to make a trip tmr.
i really CANT understand why our petrol needs to be so much more expensive than our neighbour's for the same stuff.

i'm glad i own a bike.

had some practice for colour fri tmr..
hope everything goes well tmr! thank you everyone for putting in effort. esp for the drums.
that's what i mean by committment.

everyone seems to be hyped up abt colour fri..
not that i'm not.
i'd just rather the worship and songs go smoothly tmr.
cos we didnt really have much prac. plus i think the organisation is a bit poor. worship songs not even finalised in terms of order all yet. well shd be ok la.
new song too. i really cant take these few songs by delirious. they sound so the same! you could superimpose the verse for break the silence onto God is smiling. and you wouldnt hear much of a difference.
well i guess that's how albums wok nowadays.
thats y i still listen to old songs. originality is to be found there. plus the songs are deeper.
a perfect 10 for originality would be the beatles.
i think michael jackson/ the jackson five are also very creative and original. justin timberlake too. just some bands/artistes off my head i think are original. of course there're others. like we the kings. not bad too.
nowadays lyrics are getting brutally honest. just look at run baby run. or now it's too late for u and your white horse to catch me now. or dont tell ur heart dont say we're not meant to be. or daddy said stay away from juliet. they dont hide.. not like the more subtle lyrics older songs have. both are good. i mean there's really no need for comparison. it's really the type of song we're looking to listen to.

haha i'm rambling. its almost 2.
gotta go catch some sleep soon.
gotta catch my heart.

2009-04-30T01:45:00.002+08:00

i cant sleep.
and i chanced upon this song. and happened to like it immediately... so here it is..

~ i believe in you~ il divo and celine dion
Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find you light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong

Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriere
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se leve

Suis ton etoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu croix si tu croix si tu croix
En toi
Suis la lumiere
N'eneins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je croix que je croix que je croix
Que je croix
En toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me to
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true

Follow your heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

2009-04-30T00:38:00.002+08:00

There will always be a place in my heart
In my heart
No matter what I do
There will always be a place in my heart
In my heart, there's a place for you

The roads that we travel
Some of them near
And some of them so far

We each go our own way
I cling to the past
While you reach for the stars

There will always be a place in my heart
In my heart
No matter what I do
There will always be a place in my heart
In my heart, there's a place for you

Remember the old days
Remember the crazy ways we used to be
We were outcasts in the shadows
Me reaching for you
You reaching for me

There will always be a place in my arms
In my arms
And you know it's true
There will always be a place in my heart
In my heart, there's a place for you

Remember winter, it made you cry
Remember summer, that lullaby
I will remember
In the days to come
You standing in the wilderness
Laughing in the sun

So wherever you may wander
Wherever your restless heart decides to go
No matter the distance
Wherever you are
I want you to know

There will always be a place in my heart
In my heart
No matter what you do
There will always be a place in my heart
In my heart, there's a place for you

Oh in my heart there's a place for you

so many and's

2009-04-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

i've found a new "staple".
ice-cream.
on my way home today i saw 2 yubs of kings icecream for 5.95 and bought them..
now ate 1/3 of it alr. haha

now gonna sleep...
well, hope fri goes well..
cos it'll be almost a full band performance now=)
and hope i can have more motivation to sit down to rec the songs. the deadline's coming.
and i think i shd stop self-censoring my ideas for now. i've not much left after it all.
and...

2009-04-26T23:04:00.005+08:00

i'm playing again this colour fri.
today someone asked me a peculiar qn: so ur ranking in the band is higher than xxxxxx? since ur 1st and she's 2nd?

hell what kind of qn is that?
let me quickly make my mind clear to all-
i never once think that i'm better than another, musically speaking. though i try to play differently. i think it's evident already- i have my own versions for nothing but the blood, and history maker, among other individual bits of arrangement i 'd like to put into other songs. cos i believe that the listener's shd get some variation from different performers. what's the point in everyone doing the same thing? it'd be a dull world if everyone painted red the same shade.
i dont assert to be better than another musically. nowadays i realise it's not really how good you are. and anyway i've really fallen so much in terms of skill that only i know. but well, i hope to pick it back up in a few years time, when i do leave the army. it's actually how u use what u know how to that makes a difference. knowing but not using is a huge waste of resource.
and no. i dont decide to be 1st kb. and i'm sure there's no such thing as ranking in the band. why cant everyone just be good friends with each other? why have such political undertones in that question? to trap me? cos see, i've grown very tired of strife. my parents married to hurt each other, it seems. i cant take it anymore. i'm really waiting for the day the happy ending is mine. where the crashing down of hollow years is all i can hear. where i can leave the burden and the aches buried forever. where i can be true to the ppl i care abt, true to everyone i know, without them seeing if there's something un-christian abt it they can exploit. when i can stop being a hypochrite. cos so many ppl are without realising it. yet their self-righteousness is still so forthcoming cant place it. but it starts with me. my walk with God starts with me.

i'm still a long way from home.

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side note:

*even said, "so number, go"

1st post via real internet

2009-04-23T22:16:00.003+08:00

today, my "home studio" is complete!
after some setbacks especially a $2000 scam online which i have no hope of getting back. and a lot of savings spent, my setup works! hahaha
i spent roughly 4k on everything minus the scam. yamaha synth, com, reference speakers, cables,a strong and large table, and a mike. speakers and mike came today.
maybe i'll take a picture of everything when i can find a camera. haha

well
means i gotta use it alot so i can fully make use of the money i spent.

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took off ytd to send my father to airport.
then damn sian. cos i woke up with a fever in the morning. so went polyclinic got 2 days mc. still feel feverish lei...
but tmr must go back camp.
then i got a call saying that i gotta go for this east coast trial run of 5k tmr.. for army half marathon competitive team. hais sick how to run.
oh ya. and we got third last friday in the saf sports day relay run. hahaha
(i was in the team)
good experience running 400m so competitively.
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and i guess i am an internet addict la. how? haha
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the cough medicine and antibiotics are making my mind float away from my hands. i dont really feel them. and the thoughts kinda dont sync themselves into nice sentences. so i apologize for the poor sentence construction and grammer.

oh ya. i now have a com and internet at home.=)

2009-04-16T23:17:00.001+08:00

I hope your dreams come true.
I hope your passions never die.

I hope this mode so long ever tee e lost from your heart. I for u cosy write one every single want to.

Lol hope i know fur or eve.

This is for you:) i need to sleep now. Have a race tmr. God help me. I'm not ready to for the sprint.

2009-04-11T09:20:00.001+08:00

Today's saturday. Had a nice good fri ytd which comprised of gg for service, then having rzone rawks prac..then meeting l b st a and mh for buffet. Buffet time was enjoyable but the food wasn't. Too bad i suppose, cos humans have always been the type to base their present experience on their past in any comparison.. But anw the company was great:) Then wanted to go get my soundcard but the shop was closed. Maybe today or tmr i'll go get it.. Then went to ps get vic's bicycle, saw alex drums, and trained home.

To end, i'll just document some thoughts i had when i woke up. Actually the latter part of my sleep was actually half-sleep. As in i was in and out of dreamland, and i dreamt last night! (Normally i dont). And in order of happening-
1) i wish i had msged someone before i slept. Sigh. Cos concerned ma. Anyway. I was too tired so. Sorry.
2)i dreamt, and woke up with a song. But what i remember now is only one line-.- the rest is still in that half-sleep subconscious i described.nvm. When i have time i'll work on it. I dont think i have though.
3)well i jus wished that i'd just said hi. But that's just me. I have eye contact problems.
4)some ppl's eye's are amazing:) its a blatant enough confession for my standards. I'm a very private person.

Anyway these are just random thoughts. Dont read into them unless u want to.

Last but not least-
u do abit n u

2009-04-05T08:30:00.001+08:00

Wow. Lots of food and some beer last night made me very tired today. Head heavy, legs, back and neck stiff. Basically ur brain feels tired. And being a teetotaller for 3 months plus doesn't help with ur tolerance level. Tho it didn't drop much and i only drank 3 cans. I think if u want to take alcohol and not feel the effects u need to first eat a lot. Then really, there's not much feeling to it than on an empty stomach.

Basically i'm here to update stuff, but in the usual random and vague way.

One. I like this song four to the floor. It just sticks to me.
Two. I think i have a problem with c. Contra to my initial proclamation.
Three. Close the door is a new song idea i need to develop. Oh man. It was the saddest days of my life. Lol. I nva thought i could pun.
Four. I am really really stressed. Rzone rawks songs are 8 and that's rly a lot cos i'm only familiar with like 3. And key transpos are nva easy on anyone.
Five. I need a break. To sort out my life. It's getting out of hand. I need guidance too. I am becoming so good at ignoring and running away, putting off and procrastination.

2009-03-26T21:32:00.001+08:00

I'm sick. I duno how also. Diarrhoea plus fever. On mc tmr.just saw doctor. Hope i get better before hof tmr so i wont be disturbed by fevers stomach-aches.

I think this line is interesting-now it's too late for u and your white horse to catch me now-by taylor swift. Corny? Maybe. But i think the lyrics for this song are rather natural. Quite well done.

2009-03-25T05:45:00.000+08:00

someone offered to buy my bike for $2k. What do u think? Shd i sell? Then what would i ride? I'll have to find another bike.. Which is so mafan.
I dont think i'll sell..cos i spent a lot of time effort and quite a bit of money to make it what it is today. Sorry ah dude, unless u can give me a better offer=p

2009-03-24T05:45:00.000+08:00

I attended my friend's wedding engagement on sat night. It was a simple but meaningful affair. I didn't know condos were so beautiful in the dark. But then again i prob would not spend the money to buy one even if i could, which i prob couldn't. I'd rather get i house if i could, but i prob couldn't too. lol. Who knows what adidas stands for? This world famous brand actually presents the words- all day i dream about sex. Interesting? Hahaha.